http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2012/12/06/daily-prompt-18/
Write 500 words on any topic you like. Now remove 250 of them without changing the essence of your post.
When I started blogging, my material was mostly about my daily activities. But it wasn’t enough. I needed more readership. After a few months the tone of my blog has gotten denser. It included my interests on UFO and aliens because I prayed for answers to their existence and witnessed a couple of UFO anomalies and met a few aliens. I also learned about the origins of God, bloodlines, clones and love.
While continuing to look for alleged friends who would share my interests in the paranormal and find out how to resolve theories on conspiracy-related topics, such as who/why was JFK assassinated, why/how did politics/business and government/military join forces, and when/where did/are those missing/in action go, I got a reality check.
Instead of cluttering up my mind with nonsense of unproven theories, which for the most part, may be mostly FICTION, I should have worked hard, earned money like the rest of the “commoners” and be happy living simply within my means and taking care of my family who mean the world to me. Yes, something families do have their ups and downs, the daily struggles, not for survival, but by making sense out of differences from the littlest thing to wiping down the counter to picking up the trash.
So where is all this going? Nowhere, since I’ve not taken the time or care in the world to figure out how I managed to survive on government benefits from long-term unemployment. I could assume with great confidence that these things do work themselves out for the better, not in the way we expect, but in another form as “payback”, something that has been long overdue from my investments.
After all, we each are entitled to a little help. But for how long could we keep this up? How long could we managed to stay dependent on government subsistence without taking a step back and realizing how futile our efforts have been all along? Have we been fooling ourselves to believe that our own government is supposed to take care of us after working hard through tax payers’ monies?
I really should ask myself: How long could I depend on my parents? Don’t I have a life of my own? Don’t I wish to start my own family and do something else? Although I was tested really hard, to this day I’ve not learned how I got here or why I ended being penniless. I have long decided that I messed up my life by my own foolishness. I regret being gullible, a vulnerability from which my parents tried to protect me.
“The answer lies within you.” Maw would constantly remind me of this fact. I don’t deny that she is truly wise but sometimes people like me are better left alone, even if it means finding out the hard way, the so be it. So it’s up to me to figure out how I perceive my life and how I want it to end up. I could be complacent living like this forever or actually do something different, which for me is scary yet nonetheless doable, if I could only find the courage to get going.
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