Damn! I’m still wide awake! I went to bed around 2200 and awoke around midnight and couldn’t get back to sleep because that reptilian and his beautiful mind has unhinged my fragile nerves and fermenting imagination! I’ve been having trouble sleeping these past few days!
The moon could be seen between the slabs of my wooden blinds. It must be the lunar energy. I don’t know what is being done to me. It may be that I’m being destroyed over and over again by the frustration of my infatuation and Soul-crushing loneliness.
I’ve been reading something about shadows of “waking times”. My behavior has been quite eccentric and selfish. I have been told by Philip to take a chill pill after telling him of how these loose papers are bugging me! I’ve been dubbed crazy and insane!
It would seem that family and friends have shunned me. I told Philip in our first informal meeting that I learned during childhood that I couldn’t ask anyone for help. I knew then I was truly alone. But I had many mentors, guides, teachers, messengers along the way.
And with regards to Mike and out of fairness, I couldn’t answer Philip straightforwardly because I could see myself in Mike’s shoes of being new to the process. But I have observed that Mike knows what he is doing by his deliberate goofs and subtle ability to communicate what he should do next. I know I’m being evaluated!
So please stop trying to test my resolve, you damn reptilians and reciprocate my love and hugs ON DEMAND or else face eternal retribution of fire and brimstone. May peace and pieces of moi be upon y’all!
I’m not worthy for anything of this world, of knowledge gained, or of your humorous “presence”, which is why I prefer being temporary. I’m not hard up on cash but need to establish my work history and recoup ALL retirement funds, which I lost during the 2008 market crash!
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