20241229-1856. So far I’ve tried to main that “good character” despite having a VERY bad temper and potty mouth.
I learned that keeping my mouth shut for most of my life (due to bad hearing and social anxiety) and learned nothing.
I learned nothing but hate people for being different and appreciate them for teaching me that everything is the way it is and there nothing I could do to change that which I cannot control.
So the only thing I have left is my “good character”, which is putting up with differences and trying to be “positive” on text messages for example.
But like any spiritual university, I had to undergo rigorous training. I think I failed many subjects, such as raising my voice at the elderly folks and scaring others, such as standing TOO silently and being noticed unexpectedly.
For example, women think I’m after their men. While checking out at the self-check out stand or while sitting at my office desk, the women would block their men from my line of sight. It’s THAT obvious and hilarious at the same time.
I thought I was butt fugly. But I guess those examples mean something. But when I’m with other females, the males tend to look away and towards the others in the group.
Maybe I’ve got that invisibility or force shield that disrupts or unhinges whatever is going on with others in my presence. Haha!
That’s all. End 1902 PST.
Hello Flynn, nice, and good luck!