Long ago over a cellphone conversation, I heard a contact asking me for:
`Help! Help!`
In my sternest voice never done before and out of friggin’ frustration, I replied:
`NO!`
I believe I’ve said that twice on different occasions. I was unemployed and going broke. I didn’t understand the purpose of why the contact, who was tested to have `special gifts`, continued to ask of me what I wanted so much to do but couldn’t!
Meh! After reading a recent blog entry via the RSS feed, I still don’t understand the meanings behind the concept of `heart centered`. What does one feel? How does one know? When can I tell if the lost soul needs help or not?
There are so many questions that cannot be answered no matter how much crap I read online. Seriously, folks. I feel like I’m wasting MY energy, time AND money to boot just worrying about nothing and trying to figure things out on my own! There are so many lies upon lies: I know everyday! Yes, they are LEGION.
I felt I could have continued on with the special project. Because the interesting part is supposed to happened. And I didn’t know when it would end! But so far nothing has yet materialized. For whatever reason, my nagging doubt (beyond reason) haunted me. I felt that I could not expect anything in return.
`But that’s your money!`
~Maw to me awhile back
Yes and no. It’s really your money, Maw and yours, too, Paw. For all the hard work and love you’ve showed to my brother and me, my hard work was meant to go away from me and come back to you, somehow and somewhere. It wasn’t mine. The intention was to help. I’ve failed you both.
Maybe I helped the wrong people (or the bad association as mentioned by another gifted person). Who knows if these same folds are part of LEGION? I’ll never know. Because it’s not my place to know but to observe, take notes and report back their deeds.
Anyway, help is everywhere. As emphasized in my brief conversations to my family, I kept telling them that God is everywhere. But I await to see if these lost souls truly understand that truth. They keep using the name of `God, Allah, Buddha or whatever` in vain.
Also, they continue to quote from the Bible, Koran, etc. Those old words are meaningless to me without action. Show me. Prove to me what you read manifests as reality. Then maybe I’ll remind you if you have strayed too far from me.
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