It’s been nothing but rain last night and this morning, where droplets of water cover our white acrylic windows upstairs, located in the south and west sections of the house. The cypress, eucalyptus, sycamore and fruit trees are bending to the strong winds, blowing northward. The gray clouds cover the whole Bay Area. And I could see but the darkened, faint outline on top of Mt. Hamilton eastward, too.
We didn’t attend today’s morning mass due to the rain storm. And Maw wanted pandisal (a larger, generous hand-sized, Filipino version of a small dinner roll, only slightly sweeter and tastier, too) for breakfast. Instead, she ranted about her rude awakening to the fact that Paw will never change his selfish ways. Paw is a good man. However and throughout his whole life, we discovered his functioning of normal day activities requires our programming of simple commands.
Her story went back to the past (again) when Paw almost left us to burn at Camp Allen, Norfolk, VA because he was too sleepy to wake up and check on the burning smell of our small military apartment; that Maw had to get up to do most of the leg work during the snow season and take the bus and how Paw would stare blankly into space while listening to the sermons as my brother and I played and got hurt without disciplining us.
Lifting the finger for my paternal side of the bio-units is only good for themselves, especially on the surface to those persons who don’t know them all too well. And Maw has learned that a good teacher (or wise woman, as I would describe her abilities to reconcile marriages of couples) is only as good as the student who is willing to learn and improve upon outmoded attitudes, thinking and bad behavior. And the tear-filled, sadness of Maw is an expression of her acceptance that Paw will never change his ways.
This brings me to Brat who claims he could change Twit. As in my previous blog entries, Brat denies that he is happy in the relationship, knowing Twit will continue to spend more time with her Chinese family and that her actions is but a precursor to the inevitable, which is to do whatever she wants, leave Brat alone and by himself most of the time and all because she is used to doing her own ways prior to living together with the guy AND without marriage, which to the ‘traditional’ Filipinos is a ‘no-no’.
Today’s rain storm is a further expression of my frustration at the whole world and how corporate greed and its government cahoots continue to do themselves justice while the rest of us struggle to make ends meet with high cost of living. It’s no fun staying indoor knowing there is more than being computer geek who is always thinking out loud via the keyboard.
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