Today went well except for three of us getting sick. My bad cold, allergies or ‘flu-like’ symptoms have been for one week. My parents have gotten sick also for the past few days and they got their medicines from today’s visit at their doctors. ‘Kali-Maw’s production was infected but ours stayed clear but sticky white.
Today’s weather was beautiful with clear blue skies, puffy white clouds and freezing winds. Yesterday was especially full of cumulous colds that hovered nicely along the hills of the Bay Area. If I remember correctly, Monday was gray clouds in the morning that cleared up to some white clouds and then clear skies.
The skies had some trails over the weekend. But those did not stick for too long. I took pictures of the sylphs, who made their presence on 06/04/2007 and the day before as well as on the weekends. I kept peeking outside from underneath the patio of our backyard and greet them. This was usually after work, since I’m mostly trapped indoors the whole day with these pod workers.
Working is calmer and I managed to get the credit card charges done, emails answered and lockbox uploaded. Only the overpayments need to be dealt with soon but that project is always ongoing and could never go away completely. There are also credit care refunds I’ve not done because those belong to May 2007. Lunch was eaten at our desk and that meant I skipped dinner.
Dinner would have been poos-puus (or aa-roo-skal-doo), which is a sweet rice porridge with chicken. And like chicken soup, this meal would have been good for people, like me, who are sick. But ‘Kali-Maw’ only cooked that today and I could have benefited from the healing of a good hearty meal.
I am hungry thinking about eating that porridge after complaining to my friend about people borrowing money from me. This stress factor has contributed to my unhappiness at work. A second co-worker, who is going through a divorce, inquired as to who could help load some rent money and her quote was one number higher than the other co-worker who longer works with me.
I did explain to my friend that I may have prayed with my good intention to help people. And those people were given to me but at the wrong times. I believe does not answer prayers if the person is not able to handle that truth in themselves. I often criticize myself for prayer too much and feeling as if I let my ego dictate my wishes.
Another factor contributing to my unhappiness at work is forgetting to take care of myself first before people could be helped by me. This is similar how any person could continue to work hard when the body and mind need a break or a long vacation and never come back to work. This is wishful thinking though because I cannot afford to take off of work.
My philosophy is to sacrifice as much of myself as possible and to be a diligent hard worker. I am wearing down because there is no real backup for my area on the grounds that only I am the one with certain applications to make a major process a this work place possible. Four years of having only one week vacation is not a good sign for me as a worker.
I do hope my effort later on this evening prove to be fruitful and blessed. The fiduciary responsibility to exercise good faith is one thing but making the decision support is another difficult area to master. My goal is to reach the pinnacle of my expectations of myself and others.
This is for me to be nice but firm, which means asserting my wishes and being heard. But I think noone hears me when I complain. And in spite of suffering in silence, I believe I am able to pull through the worse. They are correct to believe in me too but only as long as I am alive. They are correct to have faith that I as God’s love and will for all.
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