Okay. This blog is supposed to help me think and defragment my big brain, which is the fastest computer known to mankind. Yet, we supposedly use a very small iota to define our realities. How much truth is we to grasp based on our limited usage of our gifts to think well?
I have learned that truths which are similar are at best believable due to the comfort levels provided based on my limited comprehension. I do not understand what hate and fear has anything to do with me arriving to the truth that co-incidences happen to me all the time.
One ‘gifted’ individual does not believe in co-incidences. I believe in co-incidences partly due to my belief that I could manifest or create these realities with my much thought. I often believe that ‘J@ck B!ll*’ of Florida is this little flying one. He serves as a reminder to open up my mind to the endless possibilities.
One of my major obstacles was not saving him from death because I fear loosing the one I loved. But my impression from this hardest lesson of this current lifetime was always for the good because he said he loves me no matter what happens.
Yeah, right. I still miss being in love with the unknown, which was represented by this ‘J@ck B!ll*’ of Florida persona. And this has been my truth. I believed the unknown offered what I sought – truth. And this involves some knowledge, which happens to overload my limited mind.
Okay so. My truth is defined as a comfort zone created by my seeking that which is unknown. I continue to learn and find my answers from within as one of this repeated programming, which to my dismay continues to confound me. I keep laughing at myself as I seem to get closer to this unknown – truth.
Damn! I’m babbling!
P.S. I felt I would die without this unknown love. I took a photo of my pining self with my cellphone camera. I remember seeing my self looking sad and with lips of blue from not breathing enough air through congested created by tears clogging up the tear ducts. I knew that he won’t die because he is a spy but at least he said goodbye. 10-21-2006 11:08PM
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