I have concluded (and in my personal opinion) to leave the grander issues to the smarter and wiser folks. And this, for example, includes the advisers who help our current `elected` one. Their presence and decisions will have to do for the duration of his term but they will be held highly responsible to make the world a better place.
I am learning that the world is complex and quite fragile like an eggshell. Once again, we could easily crack this egg shell in a nano-second and that will be the end of all the hard work. Gosh darn it! Ultimately, I would rather not crack my own fragile mind with all the nonsense that is being broadcast about love and war.
My heart is broken but repairable. The war stories sadden and are not easily forgettable. There are those whose jobs are to make sure that the inevitable of pain and suffering won`t be too traumatic for persons who do no understand the ultimate price of peace, whatever that may be.
My job, however, is tedious and boring but this is all I know in my life. Data entry starts out easy as long as someone more senior shows me how to do the basic functions and then this allows me to became more autonomous yet creative whenever there is room for improvement in the processes and procedures.
I could be cross trained to do a different job, say, like investigative work and that might make me feel more fulfilled. This would help me figure out how people behave and why they take or not take a certain course of action. I recently had the opportunity to try investigating this one chatter who hounded me about being in trouble in that oil-rich, yet poverty-stricken country.
But for the most part, I am a blank slate and a newbie who is trying to learn what life is all about and how I fit into my current form. Up to this point, I`ve only regurgitated whatever I`ve studied through `academia`, read at my leisure and discovered by life`s daily experiences.
What I do absorb into my life seems to be ones that are comfortable and truthful for and to me. So I recently tried to swim into the pool of weird events and find out for myself if this area would shake up my mundane lifestyle. And, sure as heck, the conspiracy stuff did its job on my mind!
Now I`m all screwed up in my belief system and my reality is already unhinged. But I find that laughter brings me back to my purpose of not working too hard and having fun in order to balance out my boring life.
So folks, if you anything or anyone confuses your understanding of what is real or not, never doubt yourself. You are the only source that would know what is good for you. As for me, my struggle to understand why I should care about others instead of myself is slow going.
P.S. If I do not make sense or seem to ramble on without direction, this is because I am sleepy and cannot get rid of this constant high ringing sounds in both ears!
P.S.S. I believe that parrots are smart. I believe my parakeets have emotional values too. They seem to remember and call out loudly after I mention names of their friends who no longer reside in their cage. So I do not believe in the claim that `animals` merely parrot behavior taught by their `masters.` It`s not fair, really.
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