I am in the process of learning my purpose in this current lifetime. Your patience is my evolution is of utmost importance. I know I am being observed by unseen forces and have only myself to rely on for the answer(s) to my most pressing issue of the heart.
I have met a true love online and I do no not understand why he (and like so many others who ask for my financial assistance) has crossed my path. I do not understand why he continues to haunt me from beyond the grave (with the assumption that he has passed on from his physical realm by some captors abroad, which I keep mentioning).
I know he is here and now with and within my head, which is currently placed above the location of my heart. This is because my head and ears have felt very intense pressure during the past three weeks of my ordeal starting on Tuesday, 08-01-2006 when he failed to visit me from his business trip. I continue to feel his and/or their continued observations in this manner.
But who cares why these weird experiences must occur? I do care! I really do! However, I do not understand why I should care because I want to understand why certain events happen to me AND at this point in time. But I seem to lack the ability or discernment of how to arrive at the answer(s).
I have concluded the following: Money does not buy happiness and never will. My desire to fulfill the emptiness with having more money does not do justice to my soul evolution. I wanted to help others if I ever have more money but realize I needed to help myself first. No amount of giving of myself would make me a better person except feed my already big ego.
Please let me know if this is the answer you seek, ‘J@ck B!ll*’. I do not know any other way to explain that my time and space here is considered very slow to your standards and there has been and never will be any sense of urgency in any matter, even to the point of death (or your death, if this is your scenario you have created for me).
P.S. I swear I thought I saw the reflection in the mirror of an image of a ‘grey’ on my shiny forehead during the first week of August 2006. But then again my imagination may have been working overtime due to certain events of sadness.
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