I just finished reading an article via PM and have my stray thoughts that I’d like to share about people and why there are the good, bad and ugly. As usual my language is limited to my personal experiences and defined around what is left of my ego. All my life I’ve wondered why I cannot take a side – a windsurfer or a ‘balimbing, which is a Filipino word to mean someone who flows to what feels good at the moment, with whomever goes along for the sake of fun and where there is a hint of truth; no matter how plastic or fake the vibes come off from a person.
Definitely, trying to do the best for others, where generosity is given at a moment’s notice and nothing is expected in return, which is supposed to be good, always. Well, I’d like at least a quiet day alone upstairs in front of computer the WHOLE day, a nice smile from a stranger, cool summer breeze with a flock of birds flying southward in the evening skies or the constant playful, chit-chatting sounds of parakeets, would be more than enough thanks as blessings in disguise without materials in exchange for kindness.
Some of the worse disguises I feel comes off as entities whose role is to play the ‘bad guys’ or reptoids, whom I’ve been reading about for the past few years, after researching and saving outdated articles and old photos from three sites in found via ‘way back’ and ‘whale’ and something evil for the past couple of days. There is just so much stuff to read at my leisure, process in my big brain and figure out what makes sense to me. I also cannot believe all the libel (written crap to ruin someone’s reputation) that has done and said at that portal. It’s truly evil.
But to me what appears as evil is really controlling the ‘free will’ to do anything without rules, terms, guidelines, laws, etc. If this means reptoid are to eat humans, then it is fair play since some ‘humans’ eat meat in the form of juicy burgers. Eating is not evil. It’s just the way some things are created, which doesn’t explain a whole to me as to why we exist side by side.
Controlling to me means in a sense as if these ‘bad guys’ serve to prevent others from falling to far away from the ‘source(s)’ on the premise that these ‘fallen ones’ are already suffering there, almost like a sheepherder to keep the flock from bouncing off to some unknown, scary place and safely in the enclose of greener pastures.
Ranting is written out loud online and for some sensitive readers who lack in understanding (or basically stupid) from my ‘double-speak’ would feel offended. Not a day goes by when I continue to think that all the good ones go to heaven by an early death while the rest of the bad ones are left stuck in their fleshy bodies to duke out their frustrations on each other.
And this is war -my personal war of the mind, how information is presented as truth to the ignorant and why the good continue to fall prey to their altruistic mindset that everything is nice and that everyone gets along regardless of the pain endured. While I do sympathize with the young souls and their innocent, unaware presence among those who would hurt even a fly or hair on a dog’s back, I cannot take the side of those who fail to see the ‘in-your-face’ evidence to the contrary.
I guess I will never truly learn who is right and who is wrong. All I know if noone did anything personally wrong to me, I would not bother them so much. Lessons must be learned the hard way as I have been mentioning so far for those ‘in the know’. Oh well, it’s time for lunch. Bye for now.
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