Today, I’ve had enough of trying to lead an effective life of service and forgot that I needed to take care of myself. I tried my best to please and lead others in the hopes of improving their outlook and perspective in life. I should really learn to follow what I preach. And I do not feel that my work as a novice writer is entirely sufficient.
During work today, I’ve chatted with an individual that I thought was deleted from my account but added him back. For whatever reason and God knows, I almost always meet the younger versions. This particular chatter is from Singapore and is most likely non-Christian but I didn’t care to ask his religion and wanted to avoid seeming prejudice. I do not understand what makes these people think I’m interested in Asians.
Although my hair is black and my features are Asiatic, I have not dated Asians or care to marry one either. I am proud to be Filipinos but prefer to avoid associating with the likes of our suspicious and temperamental nature. I’ve read somewhere that we may have been reincarnated into the culture we did not understand or like from previous lives. And I must learn to appreciate what I’ve been born and raised into this current lifetime.
This individual has encouraged me to date him because, like so many other chatters I’ve met online, he is ‘frustrated.’ Personally, I do not feel his lack of sex is my problem and I told him to stop ‘soliciting’ this activity. He seemed friendly at first and claims to be nice and vulnerable, which is a bunch of crap to me. He claims that I am depressed for not having sex, which is probably true but none of his business. His picture was not scary but he lives far for me to try anything beyond chatting online.
There seems to be a connection with these culturally challenged chatters whenever a particular pest from Hawaii calls my cell phone. I got mad at the pest as usual and refused to help. By the way, I’ve read somewhere that Islanders consider themselves descendants of South Asian Indians, who happen to invest mostly in my current employer. I am assuming that these same people, who would try to ruin my life, continue to ‘watch’ me and pester my simple life with their nonsense.
The nonsense is trying to enslave me with the grand illusion that everything will happen soon and make me happy, which is either completely false from the beginning I’ve known them or a vain attempt to fool me into my virtual green pasture secured with promises and assurances. As a result for delaying the inevitable, which is only as good as Destiny would allow, they may have already encountered some weird ‘accidents’ or obstacles along their chosen paths.
These people do not realize I am happy to be writing this blog with all the amenities of both computer and connection being fast; to work as a full-time, ‘wage-earning’ senior member at this company; to be loved by parents who understand my needs; and to live a single life without boyfriends, children or the added responsibilities of monthly payments toward mortgages and bills. Sex is not necessary for me at the moment but a natural option.
I am no longer to be fooled by others. Enough is enough and I’ve experienced the battles between cardinal sins and capital virtues. It’s time for me to wake up and ensure a level playing field. As a matter of fact, I’d better sponsor more TB’s and CB’s for the most populace nation on the west side of the second-largest continent.
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