20230608-1852. Ranting aloud to myself. Ever heard of “changing guards”? Well, most of us are on vacation and we’re enjoying ourselves! Even VERY OLD SOULS do NOT give a damned but they understand: it is what it is.
Those that are doing the spiritual battle through pain and suffering are on duty here and now. When their time is up, the next batch of priestly warriors (albeit Christians) will take over. And this is a cycle – cycled in and cycled out – and probably forever.
Although I still cannot see anything through my eyelids and tried to attach the boogeymen, I know that if I engage these alleged enemies – that my “impressions” will be reflected AND manifested into a reality.
So for example, if I conjure up what I believe would be two sets of demonic eyeballs looking at me from behind my closed eyelids, then the “conjurer” or psychics-in-training or rather telepaths-in-training, would cast their spells and make it so happen.
That’s why I’m wondering why some servants of Dad would deceive others into thinking that the next batch must be “trained” to pick up the front line. This constant battle is really nonsense. And if it really involves deep magical battles, I’m NOT gonna be part of it.
Only if Dad appoints/allows certain souls to “try”, then that’s a given. But just to poke around and practice with the potential to get yeeted in the process doesn’t make sense. I’ve never seen, heard, or experienced newbies thrown into the battlefield: here just try it and you’re on your own.
Everything is new and nobody has a guidebook on how to proceed with this playbook of battling between good and evil. Like I said, we’re already and probably dead and all of us are hooked up together in a collective matrix of some sort as a last-ditch effort to save whatever remnants of consciousness survived the cataclysm of heavenly wars.
I really wanna quit – but I-AM the problem: I do NOT know how to let go. It’s like peeling onion-thinned, sun-burned skin VERY carefully so as not to expose fresh reddened skin. I really really wanna escape any religious group or otherwise: but how?
End of blogging. 20230608-1900.
Hello Flynn, nice, and good luck!