20230908-1241. Unfortunately, I do NOT see myself as a leader. Although I noticed one time that during a lockdown at high school, a bunch of my classmates would follow me around for whatever reason.
In the past, mommy used to be the leader and cook of the family and so I looked up after her for direction and guidance to help her with medical needs, cooking, and cleaning, too.
I noticed that since I’m the eldest cousin that everyone ignores since we live in the South Bay while the rest live in the North Bay, that one cousin is probably still looking up to me outta hierarchy.
Y’all see Chill, my younger brother and I used to grow up a little together and we had some fond memories. My detailed memories of the pasts are empty and probably due to trauma and past events are brought up only with old photos.
She has been trying to connect with us recently during parties but my elderly father is also NOT seeing that she still is holding to a “family” she once knew.
She already lost her parents to old age. She’s the only other close cousin that I know that is an “orphan”; though she is middle-age like me.
Cousin Chill is a leader just like my younger brother. Both are VERY charismatic among family and friends.
Unfortunately, I turned out to be dumb/dense/slow just like my daddy – and too ugly (probably which is why I never dated a guy or ever will get hitched/married). For y’all see the “eldest” child of the family DOES take up after the father; while the “second” child tends to reflect the mother and so on down with other mixtures.
That’s all. End of blogging. 20230908-1250.
Hello Flynn, nice, and good luck!