The Occult, Video 209: You Can Succeed! Styxhexenhammer666, Published on Dec 6, 2018
Rediscovery of spirituality after suffering drug overdose, anhedonia (I might have had this feeling for a VERY slong timew), depression multiple times, severe social anxiety (For the past few days leading up to the concert on my happy day, I was VERY upset and felt really bad), agoraphobia (I don’t like going outdoors, which is why I don’t like attending choir rehearsals at night), dropped outta college, no marketable skills, doesn’t know auto or cooking, drove for $15 per hour over the minimum of $10.50 in Vermont.
How did this happen? 1. Spiritual forces and the courage. 2. Allowed myself to succeed. He doesn’t take himself seriously. Thankfully he never got any callbacks. Now he can’t do anything but be self-employed. Now he can be a consultant with Alibaba. (I was considering doing janitorial work to clean up shit!)
One day, I’d like to be a workaholic. That was a rush I used to have when I was working a good paying job and had lots of dreams and hope. Now I have nothing left except doing normal stuff – checking emails, bank balances, scan and archive incoming mail, read news feed, blog and reblog, eat, sleep, rant and rave.
There’s NOT much success in my current lifetime. So whatever, eh.
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