“Are you okay? Are you at peace? Your guardian angel heard your prayers.”
~Maw to moi this morning upstairs prior to going downstairs…
“You are my guardian angel, just as I am someone else’s guardian angel.”
~Moi to Maw with a brief half-hug…
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Without the help of Maw and Paw, I would have been in distress for the rest of my life. I would have filed BK7. I would have gone after TPTB. But I chose to resign to the fate that if I really meant what I prayed and promised, then my hard work went to where it is supposed to – after ten slong years.
Of course, the twosome expect me to repay them back and I will slowly by paying their monthly bills (online), of course, with the hopes that Pete and pals will fulfill their promises and guarantees. For you see, they got their family, relatives, friends and strangers involved and there is nothing the Feds can do but “cover”, err, our “family business”.
Anyway, I feel that I shouldn’t accept their help and pay my own karmic debt out of my own efforts. But I see that it is to my advantage: I’ve learned my lesson about being OVERLY generous to the point of self-suffering, which is not good to the bearer of “bad news” in the guise of “good news”. My intention was to help but the documentations are for PERSONAL LOANS. Get it, now?
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After mass this morning, I saw on my car a bee! I took some macro photos of the bee. It wasn’t moving much and thought to offer it some banana for energy; so that it could fly back home. I accidentally poured a drop or two on its head, thinking that water and banana would be easier to such. But it reacted very weakly to the drops. I saw its probiscus tongue trying to eat the banana and to drink some water.
Then I decided to pick it up “gently” with a tissue paper and transfer it carefully to a nearby bush of tiny pink flowers. The bee latched onto a small pink flower and proceeded to drink of its nectar. I believe it will be fine. But that’s how it has been in my reality – to help those the best way possible and leave them to fend for themselves. I “felt” that it was cold because the bee appeared to “shiver”.
So to TPTB: while I believe in “fairness and balance” as well as the concept of unity and equality, somethings do not work out fine. There is still some struggling to survive. But in the end, we all die. It’s how the process from beginning to end that matters and the ability to alleviate suffering along the way that I’m more concerned about than results, which should be good, right?
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