There are a few times when I would suddenly be overcome with emotions and start crying (almost deeply as if grieving for the long, lost departed). And for whatever reason, sometimes these events would occur after viewing photos or reading articles online and while alone most of the time, when there is little distraction.
My eyes would get red and puffy and my sinuses would get running and congested. Thank goodness there is nasal spray to help open up my airways for ease of breathing and the relief that hopefully noone nearby has heard me blow out my boogers as a sign of solitary sorrow, of which my heart would send out these sensations throughout my system and beyond.
Below are a few examples of some of the events which had a heartfelt affect on me based on a few journal entries that I had time to save:
Various poetry: Both poetries have pictures and are about the passing of those closest to their hearts. The first one is about a kitty cat and the other one is about everything else.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008 9:52:01 PM: ‘The Grey Warrior’ via [http://hummingbunny.wordpress.com/2008/01/07/blessing-1991-2008/].
Friday, July 06, 2007 9:15:43 PM: ‘Black eyes’ via [http://spasmicallyperfect.wordpress.com/2007/07/06/black-eyes/].
Father and sons: On Friday, November 30, 2007 5:08:38 PM, I viewed one of many photographs posted on his blogsite of him and his son: ‘Musical Boys’ via [http://uwantsun.myblogsite.com/images/061507donrandy.jpg]. The son is cute and I totally felt something from the father that I could not describe but kept thinking what happened to him, really. On Thursday, December 13, 2007 7:35:12 AM, I also cried after viewing ‘Battling Boys’ via [http://uwantsun.myblogsite.com/images/randynater1107a.jpg]. I’m weird.
Student and teacher: On Friday, December 09, 2005 8:39:16 PM, I came across an article entitled ‘A Heart on Call’ via [http://educate-yourself.org/cn/heartoncall20oct05.shtml] about how an elementary teacher did not give up hope (or the faithful belief) on one of her ‘failing’ students, who later came back as a successful medical doctor — thanking his teacher in person and with a hug of gratitude.
Husband and wife: On Monday, November 05, 2007 10:02:54 PM, I viewed the main website and discovered to my shock the passing of a lecturer on the 2012 event. He seemed so alive then as I viewed the first part of the two-part video on 10/18/2007. On 11/05/2007, I finished the rest later and read one of Matty’s journals entitled ‘In the Shower’ via [http://www.mayanmajix.com/test_mattyw_41.html]. I knew that my acknowledgement of his departure is her sign of release from her grief — my attachment.
My system might be sensitive or empathic enough to pick up these sensations from various data online. In person, I do not know if one person is feeling good or bad, however. All I know that I would tune into certain subject matters and feel all the emotions surrounding that particular moment, that time and place.
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