To the Boss:
OMG! My dad is so proud of me singing with the second group! I asked him earlier: “Would you rather wake up early to attend Saturday morning mass or duplicate your Sunday’s contribution to the evening mass?”
He answered for the latter because: “I want to hear you sing!” Well, that answers the prayer to my dilemma of whether to leave the second group or not. I can’t disappoint that old fart of a man and don’t feel right abandoning both you and your Mom.
Though I feel LOTS of anxiety trying to fit into a group of people that have known each other far TOO long and as an outsider, like your white girlfriend and other sentiments of “in-laws” alike, my attempt at trying hard to please would never measure up to “blood being thicker than water”.
All I could do is my best and hope that I won’t change my mind (like changing my hair color from the current “blond” highlight to “blue” streaks.) Since I’m only a volunteer, my commitment is NOT as strong if I was paid to sing and accompany. Then that issue would be entirely different.
And y’all know already how I worked overtimes on Saturdays during my hey-days in that big-ass company/good-paying job. It goes with the territory of being a dedicated worker. But since church is also a close-knit community, leave me out of your politics, too.
Huh,
Flynn…
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