Today is beautiful! The skies are amazingly blue and clear. I do not see clouds in the skies. The winds are blowing nicely. The trees are green and lush. The air is normal. Maw is sleeping as usual. The parakeets are still in their cages. Paw is doing his normal routine. Everyone else is working except me! Dammit!
Tag: relationships
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20100429-Beautiful Day
Today is beautiful! The skies are clear and blue. The winds are blowing gently but cold when under the shade. The sunshine is warm. The parakeets are inside their cages with the bird cover offering shade and warmth from the bright sunshine.
Maw is resting. Paw is mopping. The boy is sleeping off the Allegra to `heal` his constant cough, of which I’ve scolded him last night. He has been here since 10:30am and has been told to get some REST and RELAXATION. He called in sick because he wasn’t feeling well after one hour of working this morning.
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20100428-Another Day
Today has been mostly freezing cold. The skies were full of fluffy, puffy clouds of gray rain clouds. The rains fell off and on. One sudden storm occurred at around 12:30pm and ended around 12:33pm per Paw.
We had came back from shopping at the Commissary Store after visiting Maw’s primary care doctor earlier this mid-morning.
Lunch was done and I took another mid-afternoon nap. The skies were filled with fluffy, puffy clouds of white! Patches of blue skies were behind the clouds. The sunshine came out, too.
Dinner and rosary were done. I fixed the parakeet’s sleeping arrangement so that all four females could have her own swing. The perches were adjusted lower so that the swings won’t get in their way.
The boy called and spoke for an hour, starting at around 07:50pm. He kept defending himself. All he needed was rest and relaxation. I believe he is left alone again by his wife. He may have been spooked at home, too.
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20100426-Alien Healers
Yup. Most `doctors` and others in health-related fields are of benevolent kinds. I’ve encountered MOST of them in human forms. But their eyes are not quite `human`. I’ve felt their exchanges in energy, too. They are powerful healers, indeed.
The one Maw saw that mid-morning is supposed to be South Asian Indian. She was covering for the doctor, who was out for two days – Monday (yesterday) and Tuesday (today).
Her eyes are beautiful and too big for her small skull and small forehead. The colors of her eyes are blue, light to gray in color. She had long slightly wavy hair. She was shorter than Maw and me and slight in frame. He handshake was very `narrow` and small as if I was really shaking three-digits of fingers.
She wore dark-colored tops, pants and flat shoes. Her limbs were very slender. Her overall disposition of professionalism and calmness. Compared to Maw and I, we were more fidgety and firey.
Anyway, she looked and sounded almost exactly like my cousin Shill! It’s very eerie how cultures appear to be one yet are mixed as many. She could be related. I believe certain people and experiences we encounter are of the `same` family.
It’s her eyes that I not forget.
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20100427-Phoney Calls
Well, they were right. No justice will be served by TPTB because the threshold simply would not be met. Wow! All I could do is make phone calls to find work and START OVER. Obama and pals know what I mean.
Anyway, if I’m not supposed to work, then my primary responsibility is my family. Two bio-units are well into their seventies and they are lucky to have lived long. The other ones are lucky to work and keep their jobs. And they are lucky for having common sense.
I was targeted since birth. The past ten slongs years was a disgrace on my part. I had dreams to visit religious sites and `gift` those places. Now, I’ll just take care of eight parakeets, too. I cannot go far without health care insurance, by the way.
Only `God` knows the only fight is for one’s soul. Everything else is physical manifestation of consciousness or illusion. I guess I’ll pay my karma between now and a few more months. Again, it depends on how everything shakes out.
I’m learning that tools are TOO many. It’s how the monkey brain picks out how the useful information from the bad.
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20100426-Nice Day
The skies were clear and blue until late this evening when the overcast of white with some gray clouds covered the sunshine! The air was warm enough for the parakeets to have fresh air after a cold season of being indoors.
The cold was definitely felt for an hour between 6:00opm to 7:00pnm at the boy’s house. It was during this `Ceremony for Renaming Your Boat` that I noticed that the number to the sail had double three’s and double nine’s. The numbers to the boat itself had double three’s, too.
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20100425-Beautiful Days
Today has been beautiful. The skies are clear and blue. The sun is shining. The air was warm enough to blow dust, debris, branches and eucalyptus seeds from the backyard. The parakeets got some fresh air. Their flying time has been limited to a couple of hours. And since the boys have been separated from the girls, there is more rest and relaxation for the older birds.
To Obama and pals: You are sorta, kinda on the right path. Then again I’m still looking for work and cannot live on $44.00 per week! WTF is going on? I see the SEC is capping on Goldman and Sachs. I wonder if justice is being served to gullible investors. Again, `God` is not sleeping.
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20100424-Double Blessed
That night I’ve received double affirmation that my purpose is of the geriatrics. The young fools fail to see this importance. The elders need our help just as children. For they once took care of their children. And in return, this is what we owe them – our gratitude for being born and living life the best way possible.
- I heard how peaceful Ampy sounded with her calm words. It was a moment of learning.
- I saw how peaceful Maw looked with her eyes closed. It was a precious moment.
Both are misunderstood. Both need prayers for improvement of health and for the hope that one day the ungrateful ones will come to their sense AND closer to God and ask forgiveness once and for all.
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20100424-Don’t Care
Yup: Our relatives don’t care to inform us properly of old granny’s condition. And I found out from a relative-in-law.
And what do I get? And earful over the phone around 09:06pm. Apparently, the boy thinks we are angry.
It’s actually his mouth again. He asks:
`What am I going to do about it?`
I had to hang up the second time.
The first time I hung up tonight was when he couldn’t hear me tell him what I found out: There were children making noises in the background. I was pissed, of course.
Then he continues to cover his ass and to trigger my nerves by making sound like I’m some mad person. Who wouldn’t be pissed off when he keeps throwing that crap back into my brain?
My violent side wants to drive over there and kick their butts. They deserve a piece of my mind. After all, I’m the eldest grand-brat and have a rapid speech to boot when pissed off with adrenaline flowing.
My realistic side knows these ungrateful relatives don’t care, which was his response to me as to why they failed to keep us abreast to important news. He even said:
`My father doesn’t care`.
A Filipino saying goes something like this:
`What you see in your parents, your kids will do the same`.
Now, I know why the boy treats his family so badly. It’s because he saw something from his paternal side.
The boy will continue to trigger the nerves of his family. He doesn’t know that we cannot get angry at lost souls, who already condemn us for telling the truth. The relatives are weird basically.
For the third time, I had to hang up on the poor soul. He, though bastos, will continue to know better than the rest of us, I’m afraid.
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20100424-Making Calls
Yesterday, only the relative that I called about Maw had decided to call our land line. That auntie had the usual `impatient` and stern sound to her voice: `How is your mom?`
Tonight I called another auntie, whom the `in-laws` would never treat the same in respect. I know the feeling of being on the `other side`, or as the old soul had told me on Wednesday night – the `dark side`.
I told the boy that the `dark sides` don’t exist only as challenges to be overcome. I believe in second chances. I believe in moving forward. For those who refuses to change, they are hopeless.
Prayers won’t seem to work for these most stubborn of resentful and vindictive people. But we will see and only `God` knows. Maybe on their death bed will they see the light and ask forgiveness of those they misunderstood. You know who you are Shill, you faker.
The auntie I had called tonight is VERY intelligent, sincere and generous. She knows not to play to the level of unkind people. She too has been through much and I have her to thank for taking care of my paternal uncle, whose blood results improved.
So there you go. The frequencies of similar families will have come together. Those that have unhealthy relationships are separated for good reasons. Eventually, each will recognize each other for who they are – imperfect humans learning the hard way.
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20100423-Dying Car
After Paw paid his EXPENSIVE bill at Beshoff Motors (off Tully Road in San Jose, CA) on that fine late afternoon Friday, I went to start my car. The first start was successful but it died! I tried three more times but the car wouldn’t stay alive. So I waited five to ten minutes for the engine to cool down. It was a VERY warm day and opening up the hood allowed strong winds to blow off the heat. Paw was with me at the time.
The second time this happened was at Carl’s Jr. You know, the place that sells burgers. The logo happens to be a smiling yellow star, which is CROOKED and Satanic, nonetheless! Maw was with me. A first time occurred at the Social Security Administration building in Campbell, CA and I was alone.
I have two orgone pieces in the car. And for whatever reason, the car doesn’t like to work on warm days. I noticed that the oil is close to hot, meaning I should get an oil change but I’m broke, thanks to TPTB. And the needle of the battery indicator was pointing towards low. It actually moved up and down when the air-condition was turned on!
I wonder why the good thugs are taking so long to process my complaint, huh?
God-damn you bastards!
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20100423-Dream Journal
After pulling out dried leaves from Maw’s hanging containers of pink geranium flowers, I had an allergic reaction and probably from inhaling dusty, molds after the rain. I took one pill of Benadryl and had a VERY nice afternoon nap, which lasted 2.5 hours in the computer room and another 30 minutes in Maw’s bedroom. I awoke to Paw’s knocking that it was time to pick up the car from the EVIL dealership of scums.
I awoke to a dream in which I saw the girl making a speech. The boy was to her right. She was wearing a dress with thick straps. I saw her bigger smile and bigger teeth than normal. She said she was grateful for finding love and something else. I said in my mind that I’m grateful for finding fortune and fame.
She stepped back into the wall behind her and the boy was speeching at the time. I was really up close to them as if I was viewing them through a television but right there at arms length away. I felt they knew I was watching but then again their gaze was focus directly in front of the `camera`.
I kept glaring at her and repeated over and over to myself:
`You are a spook!`