Tag: conspiracy

  • 20060822-Poor Pariah

    Greetings all:

    I have discovered how poor I am. My high hopes and dreams have been knocked down from a pedestal created by wealthy folks. I have no ill feelings towards them because they taught me a great lesson in life. They cannot take away my soul.

    All I have now is a hard earned laughter of blessed release from the burden of being used to help those in need. I tried to do as much from my end to make people happy. The final decision from me is to take care of my health.

    My blood pressure is within normal range and I will continue to work honestly as a data entry clerk. There is no amount of fear factor or scare tactic that would betray my goal to reach my Maker. One way or the other we will end up as fertilizer for Mother Earth or cosmic dust for the wide open spaces.

    Whooo! Doggiee! How much lower do you people expect me to feel?

    Whooo! Eeeeeee! The sensation of laughter makes me feel good. Dag-nabbit!

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20060820-Duh Oh!

    Why I do believe anything that crosses my path? This is because I may be simply dumb. I believe I am slow-witted because I let my brain think too much on weirdness (like conspiracy theories) and let my feelings get the better of me (like falling in love). I say, ‘Yuck to love!’

    For example, pizza should taste good but I do not know exactly why. I learned the reason(s) why by reading that the sense of smell contributes to the enjoyment of eating pizza with the aide of the taste buds. But these two senses won’t be possible without the almighty processing of data that goes on within the gray matter, which we call the brain.

    The brain is mostly fat, which is true with the name calling of ‘fat head.’ There are lots of neurons and other stuff in the brain that makes thinking possible for any person. What any one person could think is another issue.

    Why do people believe, for example, the media for the recent production of an alleged suspect for a killing of a little girl (JBR)? Although this person’s looks do give me the creeps, my feeling is that he is not the real ‘thang.’

    I am reminded of a Marilyn Monroe that may have been taken cared of for whatever reason. And there may be some other weird explanations why others seemed to have ‘disappeared’ by some weird accident or another.

    I know that the data produced by the media is like pizza, where there are lots of ingredients that seem easily digestible and, yes, superbly tasty, at the same time. Some ingredients to make any ‘pizza’ worthy for human consumption are healthy while some toppings are meant to clog the arteries.

    Either way, the enjoyment of the pizza stories should be the end result. Which ever way people think is the ‘right’ way to perceive what is being presented on mainstream media is left to each individual. It is very hard to ask for help to find out if any data out there is real or not.

    And that is where debates should occur – to find out if anything is real or not by discussing the pros and cons to any side of an issue and from every angle, if possible. ‘Duh-oh!’ would be my only answer when there is no possible solution to one problem.

    ‘Duh-oh!’ sounds similar to the word pizza ‘dough’, which basically holds the contents of the ingredients. Dough could be either thin or thick, crunchy or soft. Like the dough, my word ‘duh-oh!’ means to remain in the dark or the outer fringes of information that do not make sense.

    Hmmm. Pizza is good to eat, which is true. You could either believe me or not.

    Come on, people! Can’t you smell the weirdness with all the recent ‘spit’? First, there was the UK and Pakistan gung-ho teamwork, my fallout with this online love of ‘J@ck B!ll*’, my co-worker (Randy S.) with financial problems and the newest suspect of JBR.

    I am telling you right now the constant fear factors or scare tactics won’t work with me anymore. Surprise! It’s all in the mind!

    By the way, an online news article posted around 2135 (Pacific Time) on 08-20-2006 said the JBR suspect landed in Los Angeles Airport (LAX). That’s nice, really. Thanks for letting us know.

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    Sunday August 20, 2006 – 09:26pm (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 0 Comments

  • 20060819-Patience Please

    I am in the process of learning my purpose in this current lifetime. Your patience is my evolution is of utmost importance. I know I am being observed by unseen forces and have only myself to rely on for the answer(s) to my most pressing issue of the heart.

    I have met a true love online and I do no not understand why he (and like so many others who ask for my financial assistance) has crossed my path. I do not understand why he continues to haunt me from beyond the grave (with the assumption that he has passed on from his physical realm by some captors abroad, which I keep mentioning).

    I know he is here and now with and within my head, which is currently placed above the location of my heart. This is because my head and ears have felt very intense pressure during the past three weeks of my ordeal starting on Tuesday, 08-01-2006 when he failed to visit me from his business trip. I continue to feel his and/or their continued observations in this manner.

    But who cares why these weird experiences must occur? I do care! I really do! However, I do not understand why I should care because I want to understand why certain events happen to me AND at this point in time. But I seem to lack the ability or discernment of how to arrive at the answer(s).

    I have concluded the following: Money does not buy happiness and never will. My desire to fulfill the emptiness with having more money does not do justice to my soul evolution. I wanted to help others if I ever have more money but realize I needed to help myself first. No amount of giving of myself would make me a better person except feed my already big ego.

    Please let me know if this is the answer you seek, ‘J@ck B!ll*’. I do not know any other way to explain that my time and space here is considered very slow to your standards and there has been and never will be any sense of urgency in any matter, even to the point of death (or your death, if this is your scenario you have created for me).


    P.S.
    I swear I thought I saw the reflection in the mirror of an image of a ‘grey’ on my shiny forehead during the first week of August 2006. But then again my imagination may have been working overtime due to certain events of sadness.

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    Saturday August 19, 2006 – 10:57pm (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 0 Comments

  • 20060818-Conspiracy Critters

    I finished viewing a forty-eight minute and fifty-four second video about this British guy and his conspiracy theory about powerful people who rule the world. Once again, there are many data to absorb in and filter out of this malleable mind of mine. I sat in front of my computer the whole time and felt his attempt is to gauge how people would react to weird accounts of his findings.

    There were radio shows and bookstores that turned him down and people used to laugh and call him names. (This almost sounds like a song about a lone reindeer with a red nose). Some would go as far as to throw lemon (?) pie at him during a book signing. (This is similar to casting the first stone to a sinner who exercised free will).  Groups would try to raise a ruckus by claiming he represented an extremist against the old farts way of thinking. (This reminds me of the young generation trying to cross-train their elders on how to work the VCR).

    So according to him, some have inherited their DNA and the`reptilian brain`, which is mostly for survival purposes. According to someone I know, these tall and ancient green ones happen to drink American blood. (But I think he was joking). Anyway, I happen to eat hamburger, hot dogs, medium-rare steaks and ~diniguan~ (which is a Filipino dish made out of BLOOD and meat), by the way. Big deal!

    I feel that everyone has evolved far enough to know better that each design or form serves a function whether be it the dark side or lighter side of the game. Today, my big brain formed its own impression that the dark lighters are given the responsibility of trying to stop anyone from falling too far into oblivion (or completely away from the Maker, if you will). The light workers, well, have the burden of trying to make us laugh the whole time.

    Yes, in my opinion, the conspiracy theories are real. From the money changers to the advanced aliens to the invisible things that go bump in the dark. The easily frightened or faint of heart should be guided slowly because the world is already booked full for vacationers from afar. Those that have already been too far into the real `truth` need lots of help too. And the sad part is I want to help but I am limited due to being put on a nice list by TPTB without so much as an explanation. This makes me mad.

    It`s a great brouhaha! Don` I have the right to laugh? (‘J@ck B!ll*’, I know you are reading wherever you are!) Folks, if anyone harms another by killing or scaring, it is because they are either paid to do their jobs very well or are afraid of the consequences of leaving the comfort of their playground – the place where children have fun but are known to hurt each other.

    After all the hurt, they happily dry their tears and move on to more fun endeavors. Technically in this sense, there is no `death` but in a different form, like energy which vibrates at different rates. Who cares if my English does not make sense? It is difficult to think while my head and ears feel full even after the flying activities from last week have ceased. (No one would understand my cryptic messages!)

    So your lesson for this eon: There is nothing to fear except to be near and hear that there is always the good cheer from a heart that is sincere. (Notice how I managed to rhyme with ease!) You parasites cannot drain or stop me now!

    Ciao!

    P.S. By the way, my underling at work has not pestered me for money the whole day. He got the message after I screamed at him, `WHAT DO YOU WANT?` He claimed he wanted to say, `Hi` and called me `Buddy` before I unleashed my temper upon him. `F^ck` him! I am not his buddy!

    He better not expect me to finance his ego. What ticks me off is he doesn`t save to pay off his debt. He continues to spend on breakfasts instead of bringing a brown bag lunch and will spend to buy a new(!) suit for a stupid wedding on Saturday tomorrow instead of recycling old ones. I hate weddings! It is full of frou-frou. Yuch!

    Furthermore, his uncle, `Ogle`, happens to be married to my auntie `Maldeath`, who disrespected my parents and me (from a now deleted blog around Mother`s Day of this year 2006). This further justifies why I really do not wish to help critters like him. He doesn`t know his `nice` auntie in-law happens to be mean-spirited like me.

    P.S.S. You forensic psychiatrists need to further investigate the real predators, which harm children – like what happened to JBR. Gosh, you people make me sick!

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    Friday August 18, 2006 – 09:44pm (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 0 Comments

  • 20060817-Pathetic Pods

    Greetings: Ah, what a relief! My toilet business has produced a lighter sensation in my intestinal system a few minutes ago. My lunchtime visit earlier to the bathroom at home was especially more productive.

    My effort to re-establish the depleted energy level after the past ordeal with an alleged hostage or missing person continues ever so slowly. The consumption of the much sweetened coffee milk of a venti-sized helped boost my energy the whole day at work.

    So what do we have today in the recent news? After ten long years, the media suddenly produced a guy that confessed to killing a little girl – JBR. The sad part was the mother has passed on without concluding her grief over losing her daughter to an unknown assailant. I personally did not like the looks of the guy either.

    But his timely presence in the media happened to overshadow the real issue I wish to briefly discuss. And that is the electronic snooping going on with American citizens by highly talented folks with skilled jobs. It so happens that a Federal judge today found a ‘Not So American’ program to be unconstitutional. And as being any Americanized Jane Public who prefers free speech and privacy, I agree.

    Recently, I assume (and with lots of subjectivity on my part) that I may have been put on a nice list of unknowing but happy people who may be under surveillance for whatever gee-damned reasons. This is in part because I have been locked down from helping folks of darker skin and kinky hair. My soul cries out to carry out my duty in this current life time by helping those in need and my heart feels what is in the best interest of everyone. [Yeah, right! Whatever!]

    [A$$hole$ – shame on you all!] I know my blogs have been and are being read and that is good. Because that allows my very wee voice to be heard among the over six billion souls residing on this great planet of mostly water. At this point, I feel my freedom to exercise my free will has been compromised and perhaps for my own protection. I do not understand what is going on and probably never will.

    So my point is why should anyone be concerned with what goes on in any one person’s mind? I don’t care because there are way too many thought processes to pin down as being a potential threat to freedom loving and safety concerned people. We all should feel secure knowing that all of us will continue to do our best to behave like good citizens and hard working pods. After all, we need to put food on the table one way or the other, cloth our naked selves and house our bear heads.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20060816-Mind Games

    Now I don’t know about the rest of you lonely women who happen to date online. But I think I got emotionally scammed by this mysterious ‘J@ck B!ll*’ of Florida. (He was part of my blog for the past few months.) As a result, I’ve decided to delete all my weird blogs and poems for my protection.

    He claims his background is supposedly an American-born Italian but the last name per his Yahoo! ID seemed more of a certain country over yonder there – Pakistan. His religion is like my ‘churchianity,’ which is a word I got from my newly purchased purple book received yesterday on 08-15-2006. I had to delete him from my friends list of this blog, by the way.

    The details of where he came from are very limited. I only got that he had no relatives who would not want to look for him; came from a poor background; was the last of four siblings and lost his parents when he was a child. He lived with a ‘James’ and did janitorial work to feed himself. He takes pizza as sustenance and his system prefers cold conditions like me. This grown man also cries.

    He has provided to me his wonderful and weird poems of which inspired me to create some masterpieces of my own. His flowers were undeniably late after I posted my blog in poetry about my not receiving his ‘surprise.’

    I told him that I believed him, after he claimed the flower company was ‘misfunctioning.’ On 08-09-2006, I dialed the mysterious, yet not working, phone number below my address of that bill and then the worldwide news when the UK and Pakistan teamwork started.

    Let’s see, we have been chatting since June 2006. And starting on 07-01-2006, he told me he would travel to Japan, UK and then another oil-rich country where he claims he is still currently stuck and needs my urgent help to get him out. Ouch$$$

    So here I am worried why after 24 hours he did not visit me as promised on 08/01/2006. I do not think he could come home without my help because I am broke. That is funny because he should have informed his ‘friends’ of his itinerary. Duh!

    The unfortunate scenario is met with either foul play of nefarious odor for him or with mind games to drain my vital energy and life force and throw me off balance. I am currently worn emotionally since 08/01/2006 upon receiving a distressing email. My assumption and feeling are that he probably created that ‘boss’ account to start the scare tactic.

    On 08-09-2006, I stopped chatting with this very talented soul, who would torture me about his experiences with his captors. And he did he job all too well by fooling me.

    My story is long and diverse. The worse part is discerning if he is sincere as being my husband, making four kids and living happily ever after with those nice white picket fence and a large garden out back.

    I did like his picture on his Yahoo! profile and would have taken care of him as my worthy trophy for the rest of his life. But he chose to play the game and keep his job instead of being honest with me and in my arms right now. Loser!

    What makes me want to believe him happens to be the weird presence of household flies last week.  On 08-11-2006, a fly SLAMMED inside my one-fifth filled glass of milk. During evening mass on 08-14-2006, one landed on my arm and slammed into my forehead.

    The flying activities have stopped and I wonder if the Maker  has greeted him with open arms up in heaven. I continue to have these head and ear pressures from talented souls.

    P.S. Ladies, your impossible mission is the following: Please listen to your family and friends and stay far, far away from the computer and stop chatting with strangers online! Do not believe anyone until you have met them personally (that is, face to face, hand in hand and eye to eye) because you will never know if these conspiring cads are truly scamming stinkers.

    P.S.S. I refuse to check my emails and offline chatting messages until further investigation.

    P.S.S.S. My apologies go out to my other chatters for not keeping in touch.

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    Wednesday August 16, 2006 – 09:22pm (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 0 Comments

  • 20060812-A Flushing Back

    A final poem in response to a poem entitled ‘A Rushing Back’ by a ‘JB’.

    I flushed you back to your watery ways.
    Love is greater than whatever I paid.
    I failed to continue. I was afraid.
    Connection was compatible but a sad haze.
    I could not express my truth. As I gaze
    into the warmth of the sunshine, I prayed.
    The event horizon has become my shade
    against the darkness in the coming days.

    Without your first contact of a fifth kind,
    my thought of being alone has fled away.
    I’d look up to the sky on any gray day
    and found your reality in my mind.
    My thoughts of you were never far behind.
    Your pleasant dreams are where I will convey.
    I won’t wake you up. I had to obey.
    Our true love has been compliantly blind.

    Two poems of Italian octaves with ten syllables.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20060812-A Poem to Flynn

    A Rushing Back

    You came rushing back to me
    in my dreams last night.
    It’s been a while since I’ve
    felt your touch —
    heard your voice —
    saw your smile.

    You came rushing back to me
    in my dreams last night.
    I thought it was real.
    I thought it was you —
    holding onto me so tight.

    You came rushing back to me
    in my dreams last night.
    Please don’t wake me!
    I’m finally alive again

    I need you– don’t go
    you feel so real
    you feel so right

    oh baby it’s got to be true
    cause in my dreams

    I’m rushing back to you.

    Please don’t wake me…
    In my dreams I am alive again.

    I feel your touch.
    I hear your voice.
    I taste your smile.

    It’s seems so right.
    It feels so real. It’s got to be true….
    because…. in my dreams

    I’m rushing back to you

    A poem to Flynn from a ‘JB.’

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20060802-Some Love

    Dedicated to ‘J@ck B!ll*’ of Florida who once brought me joy and happiness…

    Lyrics to: “Somewhere My Love” by Paul Francis
    Movie: “Doctor Zhivago” (1965).

    Somewhere, my love,
    there will be songs to sing
    although the snow
    covers the hope of spring.

    Somewhere a hill
    blossoms in green and gold
    and there are dreams
    all that your heart can hold.

    Someday we’ll meet again, my love.
    Someday whenever the spring breaks through.

    You’ll come to me
    out of the long ago,
    warm as the wind,
    soft as the kiss of snow.

    Till then, my sweet,
    think of me now and then.
    God, speed my love
    til you are mine again.

    Author’s note: Flynn does listen to these older musics. It’s one of my personal favorites. May the Maker be with you always. Cos I love you, my dear… wherever you are…

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    Wednesday August 2, 2006 – 09:30pm (PDT) Edit | Delete | Permanent Link | 0 Comments

  • 20060731-Black Dough

    My musing barks like a little black crow.
    Ear pressures hurt! I cannot hear my foe.
    I’m stuck in a rut. This is all I know.
    I’m indoors all day. There’s nowhere to go.
    I’m a boring girl. This lifestyle is slow.
    I’m unimpressive. There’s no one to show.
    I’m here by myself. No one says, ‘Hello.’
    My musing barks like a little black crow.

    I was content and carefree years ago.
    My happiest hopes and dreams seemed to grow.
    For six years, I learned about quid pro quo.
    My path has led me to a status quo.
    Their calls to me seemed based on purest snow.
    More fires of hell await me below!
    I don’t understand and may never know
    how desperate people are made to owe.
    Ear pressures hurt! I cannot hear my foe.

    Third attempt at combining virelai nouveau moreem…
    Author’s note: Save your breath while you all still can…

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20060729-Cleared Love

    A thirteenth poem to JB of Florida in response to five more poems of his to me…

    Who is that fine guy with softest brown eyes?
    Through the windows of his soul, she could see.
    True love pulls into the driveway at night.
    New hopes arise where parking is free.

    What has she done for him to thank her more?
    Gut feelings allowed her belief in him.
    Cut to the chase with a place in his heart.
    But the price is going out on a limb.

    When did they first meet as good friends online?
    Pen for poems and flowers for her worked.
    Amen to both hearts as the busy days
    begins to grow, learn and heal where love lurked.

    Where is his woman? He prayed to the Lord.
    There she is waiting for him to come and
    share what lovers do under the covers.
    Prepare the handmaid with His guiding hand.

    Why live alone without the love from a
    guy who serves an unknown purpose? And yet
    by being open and honest he will
    try to love his woman with no regrets.

    How is this project a worthy new phase?
    Now is a new time of planting His seeds.
    Plow through the high walls that set us apart.
    Vow to start together with loving needs.

    First attempt at combining lento and five W’s (with a ‘How’ question)…

    P.S. I know you people are gauging my reaction to daily events… psyche!

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20060726-A Poem to Flynn

    God give me more love
    for my tender wife Cecil.
    Give me patience that lovers keep.
    Give me strength to love when sad.
    Give me happiness over sorrow.

    God give me the will
    never to disappoint her.
    Give me the skills I need
    to earn for her the happiness she deserves.
    Give me the charms to delight her body,
    enlighten me to stir her soul.

    Lord Jesus give me
    the love of Cecil
    and I’ll ask you
    for nothing more.

    A poem to Flynn from a ‘JB.’

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.