Flynn's Paws: My Thoughts, My Gripes

Tag: health

  • 20070608-Daily Diary

    Friday has been a productive day. I have called in sick after realizing I am not all that healed. I continue to cough but treat myself to puffs of asthma medication and nasal spray. I also saw the email from ‘Aura Witcheyes’ and how the AR module for applying cash would not be functional the whole.

    I awoke bright and early and open the blinds to all windows of the house, except for the master bedroom where Paw slept until 08:30AM. I saw three squirrels bounding around on top of the fence in the backyard. I missed a photo opportunity of a small black squirrel near the CB created by J—/Sensei.

    I greeted the parakeets and Maw, who had another bowl of poos-puus, which is a porridge of sweet rice and venison. I was already dressed to do some errands by 07:30AM but the oil change station, was still closed because none answered the phone as I tried to reach them. I got an unfriendly phone slamming by one of the Filipinos, who was’ working at the Speedy Oil Change in Milpitas, CA. I know because that nasty one looked fat and ugliest among the bunch. (This should tell you why I don’t date Asians as one example).

    Maw was patient enough to accompany me to the oil change station and the gas station after thirty minutes. We went to the TK Noodles off of McKee Road and found the usual unfriendly face of that Asian girl working the cash register for the longest time. Maw, as a customer, is always right and stated we were there for the clear plastic container of the logo and not the Styrofoam cup used to serve our two orders of Tapioca Jelly and 3 Beans dessert drinks.

    We saw the girl rinse Maw’s unused Styrofoam container and probably will re-use that one for the next customer. This appears gross and unsanitary and we wonder if establishments like these make that a practice while serving food to their customers. Then we went back to the parking lot and I ate almost half of mine before driving off to our next destination.

    This was a hair salon that I thought I’d try out. The sign for reverse perm was offered here and I inquired within to find out how much ($130.00) and for how long (three hours) the service would be for today. I had to drive Maw back home so she could rest and I hurriedly made my way back to the place.

    They were waiting for me and I ended up paying $155.00 (plus a handsome tip of $45.00) after five hours and thirty minutes of sitting and standing too long. The guy cut my hair two inches from the bottom after getting two lopped off one week ago by another rough Asian individual. One hour and twenty five minutes was for applying the straightening solution, another one hour and a half for the rinsing, drying and ironing, and then another one hour and a half for applying the neutralizer, rinsing, drying, ironing and trimming.

    That was fun and now I have a Goth hairdo with the long bangs covering my strong jaw line with wispyness. I told them I’d come back for the hair color but decided this basic black hair color of mine will do just fine. I will dress up now with dark clothes and make up to become another EMO for once in my life. My stupid denim jeans are dead and long live the emotional poets and creative artist in all of us. Now I’ll need to buy my dark nail polish and as such go the clothes store before going to work next week when ‘Hard-Core Red’ shows up from her vacation of Mazatlan, Mexico.

    I called Paw him I was stranded at the parking lot of the mini-mall due to the overheated alarm system locking out the ignition. Maw got the phone and started talking about my improvement and my diet, which she will help calculate for me. I told her I needed salad and then she suggested I buy a salad dressing from the nearby grocery store.

    She would not stop talking as I made my way out the car (to allow the alarm system to cool off) and to the grocery store. I panicked for a moment after realizing that I may not have enough cash for buying pandisal bread afterward. I dug around my wallet and found the remaining three, one-dollar bills, which was enough for one order of fourteen hot pandisals, which I waited for about fifteen minutes.

    So I went home and unloaded the grocery of salad dressing and bread – one for me and two for Paw. Maw was excited about my hairdo as I was excited about relief from the removal of wavy, dry hair. My hair length is no longer below my waist but below my shoulder blades. I will have to post a picture of my new hairdo soon.

    I greeted the parakeets too. Eventually, I made my way upstairs to read my emails and favorite forum with their posted articles and to enter two long journals into this WordPress.com account.

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  • 20070607-Daily Diary

    There was very little to do at work on Thursday. After all these years, I managed to get my two fifteen minutes break by snoozing at my desk. This sleepiness occurred around 15:00PM to about 16:00PM.  I would hear the amplified sounds of co-workers nearby my cubicle due to my sensitized state. I knew then I would fall into deep sleep but had to stifle that feeling to appear busy at work.

    My travel back home was especially scary because I felt woozy and almost passed out during gridlock. I was stuck on an incline, which is a bridge over Interstate 880. The cars were not moving. And the dizzying effects of gasping for air made me roll down both my windows with the strong cool breeze blowing inside the car and turn on the air conditioner with the air blowing directly on my face for the much needed air.

    Both dose of extra air did not help me feel like my having shortness of breath. Recently, I’ve been feeling pain in my jaws, neck, and between my shoulder blades too. The head and ear pressure has been ongoing for over a year.  I’ve been irritable and snappy lately, too. I had to schedule a doctor’s appointment for that annual physical check up to make sure my system is running normally.

    The evening wore on and I couldn’t stay in front of my home computer. I actually went downstairs and stayed the whole evening to hear Maw tell her stories of pain and suffering and how she overcame obstacles that allowed her to realize how futile her concerns are for other people other than herself. She went on to blame Paw for his lack of emotional support with compassion and understanding for others than himself and for his high defensiveness to protect his decision making abilities.

    After removing ourselves from the master bedroom where the original rant occurred, we found our way to the family room. Here, she treated her asthma with the machine. We also had a late snack of poos-puus (a Filipino porridge dish of sweet rice and venison) and watched the late night show to end the night of long talks.

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  • 20070602-Daily Diary

    Good morning to another blogging session. The time is 04:34AM. Earlier this morning about a few minutes ago, my parents came upstairs. They heard me make coughing noises apparently in my sleep because I didn’t hear myself at all.

    Maw flipped on the light switched an inquired with Paw behind her. I said sorry to them as I turned my head to my right to where they were standing. All I know what that I made coughing noises a few hours prior to that time.

    I felt like I had a good deep and restful sleep after taking one Benedryl capsule last night. Because I didn’t feel my nose running or the back of my throat being itchy at all. Modern medicine does prove useful in times of distress, especially when I needed relief.

    Relief may have also been Maws prayer to aid in my speedy recovery after the three of us recited the rosary last night. She did mention to guide Brat and his lost spirit for bringing much noise and confusion to his overall decisions in life.

    My assumption has been shared with my parents that perhaps a couple of incidents with his bicycle rides with friends or alone may have contributed to his violent rage, indecisiveness and short-term memory loss. He had hit his head real hard at least one time and caused a good dent into his helmet. His eyes used to be focused straight ahead also.
    Overall, I am feeling clearer in my sinuses this morning after gagging embarrassingly during work yesterday afternoon. The nasty post nasal drip caused me to cough violently to the point of almost vomiting.

    ‘Leoni RedEyes’ came over and tried to offer tea bags for me to drink but the coughing spell was over. We had been chatting about 401K and ESPP accounts and I told her I wanted nothing to do with those deferred retirement accounts and preferred cash.

    I told her I’d use the cash now and enjoy instead of waiting for retirement age when most elders get dumped in the nursing home. I did remind her that her daughter, Twit, may get married to a husband who may take care of her. And like everyone else, she will move on with her life.

    This is also true of the other temp who has decided to take a one week vacation to visit Nicaragua and the family of her fiancé living there. I told her family came first and jobs will always be here. She claimed her job is her priority.

    My priority in life is to get out of ‘Sickos’ as soon as possible. I have nothing to do with working full time as someone else’s boss. For once, I’d like to go a good vacation and never come back to the rat race of Silicon Valley. It’s not fair, really. And I wish to bring my parents out to enjoy with me too.

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  • 20070531-Daily Diary

    Today is gray and cloudy. The weather itself reflects my health condition. I’ve been feeling stuffy in the ears, nose and throat since around 04:00PM last Sunday, 05-27-2007 after walking outdoors under the sycamore trees with Cunning, a close friend of Twit and a Realtor with an office in Fremont, CA.

    I started coughing as if chocking on something while both of us were in the living room and about to leave my home. This was after Paw called from the party over at the home of Brat.

    I’ve been coughing, obviously, to annoying co-workers a few minutes ago and all of yesterday. The venti, green tea latte of $3.25 from this morning is helping to sooth my coughing spells. A Benadryl from last evening dried up whatever allergen may be contributed to my ‘flu-like’ symptoms.

    The boogers are clear and I believe is really allergy related to dust, molds, weeds and grass that I inhaled from the air last Sunday. I should really get out more often and boost my immunity. There is really nothing wrong with the outdoors. I happen to prefer indoors.

    As a result, I cannot step away from blogging upstairs and at work. But this would be considered my break time; since we are not allowed to update our system until further notice.

    I could call in sick because I do have lots of paid time off hours but am not contagious. I wonder if the co-workers who cough around here are contagious. I do not know or care.

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  • 20070520-Blue Blink

    A flash of blue bright
    In the early morning light
    While blogging to write
    Twice the excite without fright
    HP, SP — orgonite

    Another sample of tanka in monorhyme.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20070412-Unblock Shocks

    Wore HP to bed
    Placed zapper on tummy from head
    Crown energy spread
    Twice jolted from heartfelt shed
    More relaxed and pains have fled

    Good morning to jolts
    Thankful for these blessed bolts
    Laziness revolts
    A reminder to awake up volt
    Kick start day from unknown colts

    Two more samples of tanka in monorhyme.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20070323-Daily Diary

    Unfinished poem about putting napkin around Mom’s neck for catch crumbs.
    After surgery of her right knee.

    Created Friday, March 23, 2007 4:44:51 PM
    Modified Saturday, March 24, 2007 2:49:38 PM

  • 20061205-Red Dot

    I produced a red dot on my right foot at around 08:03PM on 12-05-2006. I had this tremendous itchy, red, hot and irritable feeling on the top of both feet and began to scratch. While I was reading a new forum thread I felt the ooze. I think this may be a bite from a tiny insect. But so far, the hot feeling continues.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20061125-Dream Journal

    I’ve edited my blast for this Yahoo! profile based on two headlines from CNN. ‘What next?’ and ‘What can be done?’ are two from this show and I have thought to include a possible clue from this morning’s dream of four golden events in the form of a cross to these two queries.

    The counter hit for this Yahoo! profile is currently 4989. This means an average of five to seven people have been visiting this site. I sense they too are seeking answers to their queries. I hope the unity group would provide clearer data for my big brain.

    I only feel their presence via head and ear pressure and do not ‘hear’ their thought patterns. I am not that yet evolved or awaken enough to know better. I too am observing and mirroring the effects of their experiences.

    My experiences are human and my clutter thoughts are human by nature. They have accessed data that belong to events that affected my conscious state and that is but a minuscule amount of data at any given moment. The truth is, however, out there. The answers are always within me, of course.

    Refer 20061125-Prayerful Poem.

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  • 20061028-Early Morning

    I awoke around 06:00AM after sleeping but only five hours. I do not understand this morning’s strength compared to the tremendous sleepiness in the early afternoon of yesterday.

    My blast entry used to read ‘Faith-Pretty-Be or Be of Pure Faith = Strong as Iron. Siriusly cryptic, yet funny too.’ This was entered on 10/27/2006 at 10:22PM – one hour after speaking with the fat one.

    The fat one is also well gifted and I wonder how he is able to tune out the noise. I’ve been reading my favorite forum author from this particular website. So far, he has thrown out lots of data that seems familiar to me.

    He has used lots of what seemed gibberish with endless repetition of words and phrases, especially ‘som.’ His language seems ‘foreign’ – almost alien as if he is connected to a stream of universal data and almost like a computer thinking too much.

    For example, ‘SOM’ represents ‘son of man’ or sometimes part of the word ‘some.’ He has recently posted threads in normal ‘English’ language. He has combined English grammar to form new ones by inserting ‘ingly’ after each word.

    I associate with many things, including words. And I tried to understand this word ‘unity.’ All I could decipher was that our thoughts are unified, from our stories of many lifetimes to our experiences of every atomic particles, if you will.

    There is the alpha and omega and a door connecting both ends of the tail. There is, however, a boulder and two forms that seem to be blocking the way out from inside this box. One is fear. The other is hate.

    This entity named ‘som’ is stuck inside this box, which is named ‘I am.’ All I could gather from the articles earlier this morning is that the dude is being too strange for me. I find entertainment and think too much as a result.

    Last night I went off to bed; tried to connect from the heart; felt my back energize and my chest ‘respond’ underneath my orgonite pendant. I did too much reading and would stretch to relieve the tension in my back.

    So here I am again trying to figure out what is going on at night while reading my articles. During morning hours, there are no head or ear pressures. I assume the psy-ops are sleeping and I need more practice to blast them well during their peak hours.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20060930-September Day

    Good morning to another cold and cloudy morning. I awoke at 07:30AM and opened all the upstairs windows to allow the fresh air to circulate inside the house after removing my ozone generator since this Thursday because of the possible health risk from prolonged exposure to ozone. I do not know if this is true and find breathing fresh air from outside better.

    From around 03:15AM to 03:30AM, there were several police cars speeding approximately 40MPH westbound in a rhytmic beat over a indented manhole located in the middle of the intersection. There were two vehicles speeding in between two police cars. There were approximately one dozen patrol cars speeding down this stretch of road.

    I lost my ‘20060620-Rhazzy Cat’ poem because I wanted to email Edge my masterpiece. I saw several more pictures of his fluffy cat and am disgusted at myself for saving the bad copy to my archive. I will attempt to re-create my poem but the original is lost forever. Waaa!

    I smell ‘Kali-Maw’s fried rice cooking from downstairs and the distinct smell of garlic has been working its way upstairs for a few minutes now. I should have taken my quick shower but had to spend thirty minutes online reading articles and verifying my credit card payments. I am down to a few hundred dollars as emergency money. I have been been sustained with these little blessings.

    This, my friends, is my fate. But the more noticeable image of my alien currently etched on my forehead tells me better days have always been here and now. I have what looks like two bruises as its almond shaped eyes, which are similar on some Japanese portraits of women with two dots on their foreheads. One of the three photographs taken on May 24, 2006 during the company meeting on the fourth floor of the parking garage showed these eyes.

    I’ve been running my hands over my forehead these past few weeks after experiencing severe head and ear pressures since August 1, 2006 from the psyops gang surveillance. My forehead used to feel quite smooth and round. Now I feel a very noticeable vertical ridge starting half way down the middle from the hairline. My raised bump is approximately 1.5 inches wide from left to right.

    P.S. If anyone has a copy of my poem entitled ‘20060606-Rhazzy Cat’, I would like to send one to this warrior. Blah!

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20060925-Love Opposed

    The current time is 08:47AM and I thought I could compose this blog. I finished taking my morning shower to remove my stink so I could feel cleaner and smell fresher and the co-workers won’t be afraid to come near me.

    After reading the long-headed articles about faith, theology and spirituality, there should be no opposite to love because ‘God’ is supposed to be love and omnipotent. There are, however, variations to love with each one vibrating differently.

    There should be no such thing as hate, fear, sadness or loneliness. These are words created to define the human emotions. Our emotions should be replaced by this almighty love. And of course, if noone understands this love, then there is war to find purpose back to this love.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.