Flynn's Paws: My Thoughts, My Gripes

Month: October 2006

  • 20061031-Halloween Hum

    Ho Hum. There were about 73 or 74 people who came by to pick up their treats. Most were teenagers. One teenager complained about no tricks. ‘We are neither actors nor magicians.’ I mumbled under my breath. The cutest ones were the little kids. One was in a Batman outfit.

    Most had their backpacks, pillow cases, plastic bags and paper bags. We ran out of candy and I came back with 21.00US notes worth of extra candies. Maw had to turn away 15 kids. But that is fine. I made scary noises to the boys who had no treats. This was to scare them away or from doing any tricks to our property. The kids had clear skin and most were Filipinos’ with dark skins.

    The air was cold but tolerable indoors. We had the black screen door that opened to them. This was for me awkward and I plan to remove this metallic iron bane. The other noises were the haunted house of screaming women and tolling bells and the floor mat which screamed upon treading with one’s weight.

    I had a headache the whole day after breathing in deeply to stretch my tight chest and painful back. The snapping and cracking sound of my rib cage from breathing deeply concerned me less after a slight fainting spell while sitting at my desk at work. That is how I got my headache – from breathing too much.

    The boy at work seemed quieter and the effects of depression from the death of his mother is clearly seen on his face and heard from his sigh. He has been reminded to be quiet by the boss and make him aware that he is working. I feel he needs more healing.

    Maw and Paw are well. And Maw’s kidney results improved from last week’s doctor’s appointment. I feel they both need healing. My eyes were noticeably tired yesterday per my boss. I had running left eye from Judy L., who was speaking too close to my left side at work.

    I’ve read more articles from this teacher who is assumed to be a firefighter. I believe these put out the fires of hate and fear to return and guide the path of each person to love and light. I know DC would not want everyone to follow this Theosophy teaching.

    I do not know how to pronounce that word Theosophy. This word is not familiar to me. I came across words familiar to me, however. I know certain authors from this particular forum know I have visited their room. He. He. He. I’m that good, eh? This is not-a-lie!

    Here are some key words that I’ve used in the past via on my now deleted blogs: wish on a star and work like a mule. I remember driving on my way to work on northbound 101 one and heard two separate songs of ‘holiday; celebrate.’ and ‘wishing on a star; follow where you are…’

    Then lo and behold on 11-01-2006, I see someone’s pen name with the words ‘holiday’ and ‘star’ on it. And within the thread there contained the word ‘time to celebrate’ as one of the lyrics to the song I happened to have listened a few days earlier!

    Furthermore, these are the words these forum authors would use in their threads as per my thoughts: peep, moron, Templar’s, initials of JB, water (H2O), and of course dog bones.

    Yup. The here and now is based on synchronicity and connectivity. The unity crap is all too real and is the plain truth. Anything we create with our thoughts is reality. I knew this to be true because events would unfold as I create – as would God.

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  • 20061030-No Clouds

    Today, after lunchtime around 01:45PM, I had to call up my contact person to inform him of my answer as ‘None.’ There is nothing left for these people and I will remember how I could not pay for my crown of 500.00USD notes. He had left three voicemail messages on my cellphone. He also called me back again after work after 05:00PM.

    I cannot believe how wonderful the weather seemed today. There were lots of wispy clouds and lots of trail clouds too. The obvious clouds appeared as a ‘trident’ or the letter ‘W’ with a four arm to the left of this particular marking in the sky. The location of these clouds was due southwest of the towers at work.

    When I arrived at work, I noticed more trail clouds near my window facing east. I was thinking angry thoughts and didn’t like receiving this email from a very religious co-worker. The email contained some Biblical’ passage from John 03:16. I mumbled how I don’t like Bible’ thumpers.

    Later on in the evening, the clouds started looking like ‘popcorn.’ The supervisor left early at 02:15PM to attend the funeral and the boy left early at 04:00PM for whatever reason. The same co-worker who sent the email said aloud that she seemed to be the only one. That hinted to me that I should be aware of my environment that I am the only one left in the department.

    So this is nothing new. I am left alone as before and without these extra people to cover my area. This is my peace for one more hour. I wish to leave this place soon and let these Filipinos work with them. I do not like teamwork and attending meetings do not make the world any better.

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  • 20061030-Updating Blast

    ‘To blog in private mode as my current path: Thankinglyfully. 10:22PM 10/27/2006. Final answer: You plus me equals us. One in three means Unity. 10/29/2006 01:55PM. Grade: A+’

    I’ve been updating my blast and found that some people are reading. This is by my comparison to a particular thread I’ve been reading. The date stamp of this forum author coincides with my posted blast time of 10:22. My counter is up by three more as of today.

    I feel like blogging more nonsense and then publicizing more so I could offend the losers that continue to hound me at work and on the road. This newest incident occurred after taking my lunch from home between 01:30PM and 02:00PM today.

    Again, about one quarter of a mile from my exit back to work, this white car pulls from a parked position. The far right lane and the land to my left were both clear and not heavily traffic.

    This white four-door sedan has signaled its intention to move immediately into my lane as I approached within a distance of three cars breath. I signaled right to show the drivers behind me what this car was about to do upon my intersecting its location.

    I then swerved obviously from the far right lane into the next but clear lane to my left. I was doing approximately 60MPH. I wonder if the camera off northbound highway 101 had captured the idiot’s move.

    I then swerved back immediately in front of this car and sped up some more to finish my exit. I saw this motorcycle with one very large headlight hurry along from the third lane and in no time appeared right behind me. He looked Asian.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

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  • 20061029-Beauty Marks

    Red dots and red spots
    appear almost every day
    on porcelain plain.
    Not grotesque but beautiful
    in every possible way.

    Brown ones and black moles
    lightly stained by painter’s hands
    on canvas of white.
    Dark fur tanned under the sun
    and over rivers of blue.

    Two samples of tanka poems.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20061029-Dream Journal

    I awoke around 08:30AM and dreamt another weird one. I remember having to do something and had a bunch of green colored vegetables in plastic bags delivered in one pile off the curb of a street. The daylight was showing at this time.The series of six-digit number appeared on a piece of paper. The first number seemed to start with something similar to ‘13133.’ I tried reading these numbers to my contact person but he interrupted me and that was when I remember hearing, ‘[It] has been delivered.’

    My contact person said this was not correct and I heard him making sounds not being happy. He proceeded to enter three similar sentences or instructions to me, which appeared on this same piece of paper. I remember the name of the company being similar to ‘Merck.’

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20061029-Forgotten Stay

    That place is where you all belong
    for those who are no longer strong.
    Do you hear me when you’re alone
    and forgotten in that unknown?

    The gray haze should not be that way-
    the stolen freedom everyday.
    Once inside there is no escape
    buried alive by their red tape.

    If teamwork is the game you play,
    then take them back without delay.
    There’s no time or place to compete
    but together we are complete.

    A poem of three stanzas with eight syllables per line in aabb, ccdd, ccee pattern.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20061028-Iron Faith

    Faith is like iron.
    Attracts love like a strong magnet
    Silver-white but rusts

    Revised to a haiku poem on 02-25-2007.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20061028-Early Morning

    I awoke around 06:00AM after sleeping but only five hours. I do not understand this morning’s strength compared to the tremendous sleepiness in the early afternoon of yesterday.

    My blast entry used to read ‘Faith-Pretty-Be or Be of Pure Faith = Strong as Iron. Siriusly cryptic, yet funny too.’ This was entered on 10/27/2006 at 10:22PM – one hour after speaking with the fat one.

    The fat one is also well gifted and I wonder how he is able to tune out the noise. I’ve been reading my favorite forum author from this particular website. So far, he has thrown out lots of data that seems familiar to me.

    He has used lots of what seemed gibberish with endless repetition of words and phrases, especially ‘som.’ His language seems ‘foreign’ – almost alien as if he is connected to a stream of universal data and almost like a computer thinking too much.

    For example, ‘SOM’ represents ‘son of man’ or sometimes part of the word ‘some.’ He has recently posted threads in normal ‘English’ language. He has combined English grammar to form new ones by inserting ‘ingly’ after each word.

    I associate with many things, including words. And I tried to understand this word ‘unity.’ All I could decipher was that our thoughts are unified, from our stories of many lifetimes to our experiences of every atomic particles, if you will.

    There is the alpha and omega and a door connecting both ends of the tail. There is, however, a boulder and two forms that seem to be blocking the way out from inside this box. One is fear. The other is hate.

    This entity named ‘som’ is stuck inside this box, which is named ‘I am.’ All I could gather from the articles earlier this morning is that the dude is being too strange for me. I find entertainment and think too much as a result.

    Last night I went off to bed; tried to connect from the heart; felt my back energize and my chest ‘respond’ underneath my orgonite pendant. I did too much reading and would stretch to relieve the tension in my back.

    So here I am again trying to figure out what is going on at night while reading my articles. During morning hours, there are no head or ear pressures. I assume the psy-ops are sleeping and I need more practice to blast them well during their peak hours.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20061027-Eyes Sleepy

    I felt tremendous sleepiness after 01:00PM while sitting at my desk at work today. This was after eating lunch of chicken in soy sauce. ‘Kali-Maw’ cooked this meal and I ate two chicken legs with lots of rice.

    I felt like wanted to close my eyes, which I did. And I think ‘Legg LaCigar’, the computer support who sits nearby, saw my eyes were sleepy. I was soon awake after drinking one can of sweetened iced tea and my third cup of coffee.

    ‘LeNaval RedEyes’ our supervisor has left at 02:00PM to pick up her daughter. ‘Fancy Soul’ and ‘Toad Soup’ left around 02:45PM to attend the fourth quarter meeting. ‘Feign Hurt’ and I soon followed. I was not in pain while walking to the place and with my heave black purse strapped across my shoulder.

    We sat there for a good one and one half hour from 03:00PM to 04:30PM. I talked with some strangers from the billing department and clapped my hands as needed. I noticed ‘Feign Hurt’ would yawn to signal me to shut up. As a result I would not attend her stupid party at home on December 8.

    I saw two of my pictures flashing across the screen – one alone and one with ‘Super EyeStar’, the founder of this company and the temp, who no longer works at this company. After all that has been done and said, I tried to eat and drink the food provided. But I left around 04:45PM.

    As I walked, I reviewed and listened to three new messages – two from my contact person and one from ‘LeNaval RedEyes’. I left my brief voicemail message to him and slowly walked with much heaviest from the bag and from sitting too long at the meeting.

    I am not sleepy now and probably had my fill from dinner tonight to keep me awake for a bit longer. I do not know how else to proceed. There is much to do.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20061027-Weird Co-incidences

    Earlier I was playing around with my first name and came up with new poems.

    Then I heard the sound of my cellphone buzz to inform me of either an incoming call or, in this case, a voicemail message. The time was almost exactly received at 09:11PM! I listened to the voicemail message about one minute and heard the time stamp as 05:26PM.

    The message was a ‘thank you’ by my contact person and he said I could call him if needed. I definitely needed to call him because the time between the receipt of the voicemail message and him leaving one for me was a significant gap.

    And the fact that the time I heard the buzzing noise from my cellphone was 09:11PM was enough to convince me of synchronicity, or co-incidences. My feeling was that this was supposed to be no big deal. I think this is the final (or last straw) for the greatest thorn of my karma in this current lifetime of mine.

    I told him, ‘I’m not supposed to believe in co-incidences.’ And maybe he truly needed my help again this time. I asked him why ‘obstacles,’ if you will, would happen. He said he knew these would occur yesterday.

    I told him I do not feel comfortable. I had expected him to beg as before but this time he didn’t say much. He expected me to call him tomorrow but I knew I wouldn’t co-operate because there is really nothing to clear until next week. This is the bottom-line.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20061025-Stupid Discussion

    Well, here we go again with the people at ‘Ex-Ball’ targeting me. There are various incidences here that seem to go unreported or unnoticed by people who are in turn with their environment.

    Some cough by passing by my desk everyday, like ‘Toad Soup,’ (an Italiano who works in facilities department); sneeze, like ‘Upchuck Red’ (a white guy who works in facilities department); annoy with stray comments, like sales people near the elevator and disrupt, like ‘Jerk Turdannatto’ (another Italiano who works in the finance collections department).

    From 02:00PM to 02:30PM today, I met with ‘Matter Mole.’ She is nice a ‘Crys-Tian’ and understands the concept of being assertive and sited examples of her life where she stepped up to strangers to correct their alleged wrongful behavior in public. She listened well and took notes as I babbled to the best of my Americanized language.

    The ‘Smith’ conference room was near the sales department and they people were listening. I didn’t make myself very loud so they wouldn’t hear. The ‘idioms’ at this company know I hate them for being so stupid too. My quiet and shy behavior makes me more easily misunderstood to these loud mouths. And they do no realize the nature of accounting and how certain dead zones are not supposed to be noisy. Every pennies count, by the way.

    So after thirty minutes of airing out my issues, she would speak with ‘Log Nelson’, the boss of the turd I keep mentioning in my now deleted blogs. I wonder if the people from HR would speak to the actual stalkers elsewhere that I have yet to mention. Those who could access my blogs in private mode already have their targets named by me. I am a whistleblower to certain but a discrete one. I am security minded yet freedom of speech is further limited recently, I’m afraid.

    My other stalker has been ‘Fancy Soul’ who works in my department. After he revealed his non-blood relation me, the nature of our working relationship has never been the same. My visible abhorrence to him has been felt and noticed by him. I have snapped at him and he has snapped his fingers in my face. He has chewed an apple in my ears after reading my blogs about him.

    As a result, he has already reported me to ‘CarolTwin DaZit’, who was our former boss but now has quit the company since 09-15-2006. She tends agree too much with the boy to further confuse is state of mind. His being a ‘Crys-Tian’ does not make him a better person either if he continues to disrespect his seniors at work, like ‘LeNaval RedEyes’ and me.

    His uncle is married to my blood auntie. The couple has disrespected my parents this year on Mother’s Day weekend. By the way, his uncle also clobbered his daughter, my first cousin, for doing substances. That tells you how they handle difficult problems.

    His uncle has this high ego just like ‘Fancy Soul’ does. All they talk about is money. ‘Fancy Soul’ assumed I had money and quoted out of the air that I may have $100,000.00. He justified this because he thinks I live rent free with my parents in an already paid off house. He further wanted help from me and this further strained my working relationship with him worse. He does not know when to shut up.

    He suggested I buy a house in Las Vegas for investment and has a cousin who could help me get a property over there. His uncle wants to sell the first house where his only daughter lives. This means the girl would not afford to raise her family of two kids and a husband that looks similar to ‘Fancy Soul.’ I should tell ‘Fancy Soul’ I changed my mind.

    I do not understand why certain people have targeted my path. ‘Matter Mole’ explained that some who are open to criticism and willingness to learn from their mistakes are free from fear and don’t have any need for ill feelings. This shows that the company could have a big file on anyone and still get nowhere. Like ‘Dung Heap’, the manger of my supervisor named ‘LeNaval RedEyes’, ‘Matter Mole’ wanted to find out what I wanted.

    Of course, I was prepared for this inquiry and responded to her, ‘whatever is right.’ I wanted justice. But this place, like so many big companies, play safe and find out what happened to be between both sides. I told her I intended not to do anything with the turd and that was my strongest statement. I wanted to make her realize that the turd had better not be projecting his problems with his now divorced wife on me. I did mention I was concerned for my safety.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20061025-Dream Journal

    I remember being a female. I played the role of my mother. The location was at a military base. The base had lots of houses for military family. The scene occurred during the daytime.

    I was walking up to one of the front doors. The front door was located in front of a street. I looked once and twice around and found myself alone. I think there may be someone walking to my right but am not sure.

    The number of the address was four digits. I barely remember if the numbers were 1437 or 1473. But there should be numbers one followed by three, four and seven is some order. The numbers were located vertically on the right side of the door panel.

    I am inside this room and there is an elderly man. There is a grocery list and I looked at the items listed. The original words looked familiar but a second column was filled in to the right of these items. Someone might have filled in the items.

    I looked outside the window of this place. The window seemed higher above the floor than normal ones.  I thought I saw a steeple or something vertical against the very deep blue sky. There may have been a cross like structure above this roof. I may remember looking out the normal height window because I see the foreground of the neighborhood.

    Copyright © 2007 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.