Today, Fr. Perata (our favorite pastor) said the sermon for this evening’s mass. He said:
Justice is getting rid of the stuff that gets in the way between God and you.
For the longest time, I’ve been wondering why people try to impress me with their stuff. Anytime I hear them bragging or see their junk I could only close my ears and shut my eyes; for my philosophy has been that of emptiness – what you have is not necessary.
Our pastor also mentioned that if stuff makes us happy then its fine. But does having more stuff fill the ego or get in the way of being closer to God?
Yesterday during morning mass, I had many stray thoughts as to why I’m still stuck with the bankster’s credit card debt and why I’ve went all the way to get rid of every last-damned, hard-earned penny in hopes of getting something and after nine slong years for nothing.
In one of my stray thoughts, I imagined myself drifting off to sea and dying inside a turtle shell. My white sail was not catching any wind. I kept calling out for help but noone answered for I was in the middle of the ocean. I closed my eyes and clasped my hands in front of me.
I keep failing to understand this lesson that God has set before my path. I keep missing the target that it was a waste of my time praying for something that was not meant for me, just like what Julie S. told to Maw during a phone conversation after receiving her package of prayers. At age 70, the old fart never won the lottery after praying many times.
So that’s my sign: Either I drift off into slumber or WAKE UP! I guess I’ll have to fight back at the unknown, their lies.