I’m listening to 33-records of ‘Strauss Waltzes‘ from my childhood. It has 10 songs. Another record is called ‘Italia Mia‘ of 11 songs. Montavanni is the best conductor.
Tag: Philosophy
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20090106-Laid Back
Twit: He is whiter than you.
To me, that means they prefer to belong to more proper Europhiles, the oppressors. While we belong to the poor folks who are not highly active and more outdoorsy like them. They are ashamed of us for being too fat and ugly, too hairy and dark-skinned, too smelly and kinky-haired and too hot-tempered and passionate for their more peaceful, non-confrontational ways and alleged good heartedness.
But I see through their superficial sweetness and happiness mantra behind their rapid-fire conversations that something is DEFINITELY not right. They are not perfect. And just like us more laid back people whose attitudes and lifestyles are more like the black folks, they too have family problems. I have observed that the siblings do their own things and live their own lives. I have learned to accept that siblings move on with their new family units and forget the former ones.
We have ‘cow-towed’ too much to them and be like them and liked in returned – in the church and with everyone else willing to play along with old-fashioned respect and kindness. All we got was disregard to our culture and disrespect to our opinions. They have ignored us too many times.
We are no longer bothered by their choices to live a happy life together – full of teeth-grinding denial of fake smiles and plastic faces, in order to save what little remains of their sanity and survival by keeping and flocking together. It’s enough to drive serene person nuts from hearing non-stop conversation about anything mundane and ordinary. But that is their nature.
We are Filipinos, who like to keep to ourselves. We are more like the black folks, not Chinese. But for whatever reason and for demographic purposes, Filipinos have been lumped together with a category called ‘Asians’. The cultures among ‘Asians’ are different. There are too many dialects, provinces, towns, barrios, banyans for any one group of ‘Asians’ to completely understand each other.
Getting along will always is difficult. Expressing self to others has lost its meaning through simple English. It’s never going to be the same. Change for the better has not and will not occur to certain groups who continue cling to their traditions.
And y’all know what I mean: I’m not going to lighten up and let y’all live your fantasy of love and light, peace and good will. This is not my purpose. Nothing is honky-dory. I see now that this is reality. The world is insane. People are insane.
Copyright © 2009 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.
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20090106-Black Familiar
Years ago around Halloween, I visualized wanting a familiar. At night there appeared a family of cats. I held out my hand to a black kitten but Maw scared them.
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20081224-Black SUV
The neighbors called the police about a big, black SUV parked directly in front of our home. It was the police after I gave the family X-mas presents from JCP..
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20090106-Stray Comments
‘We’ve become…’ (black employee) I heard her after she saw me. This was lunchtime at Sunnyvale Mall off Mathilda Ave. near GMAC around 94-96. It was slow then.
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20090106-Sunny Day
It’s a nice, sunny day after yesterday evening’s sulphuric smell. I’ve been waiting in the car since this morning during several doctor’s appointments. Blog on!
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20090106-Random Thoughts
Back to back, the Guardian and her ward meditate on the sandy beach. With eyes closed, she converses with her inner dialogue of many thoughts, unending yet none.
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20090106-Random Thoughts
The sight and sounds of people smiling and laughing make me wonder if face value should be taken as sincere or fake. I see hairy monkeys with white fangs teeth.
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20090106-Random Thoughts
Two ships sailing towards each other, billowing sails unfurled. Upon intersection, they greet each other with cannon balls. Goodbye as they pass by each other..
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20081220-More Jobs
‘Barry’ increased employment goals to 3 million. That number looks better only if I could get a job! Waiting eight slong years is nothing compared to this unit.
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20090105-Thanks ‘Jesse’
Tagalog: Salamat sa iyon lahat!
Translation: I cannot thank y’all enough!After waiting since Christmas Day for our main phone line and most especially for the DSL service to work, we are able to hear a ‘Dial Tone’ and access the internet!
At around 10:00AM, ‘Jesse’ came around, rang our doorbell and informed us that the damaged cable from the rely box(es) around the Flickinger Ave. and Hostetter Rd. areas was repaired.
I am once again alive! And I’m able to rant and rave by blogging via WordPress.COM! It’s going to be another Happy New Year as long as I could work to earn some money and pay down their credit card debt to me.
You see: It’s all about the ‘network’ and their puss-heads working behind the scenes. For whatever reasons, the inability to get online put my life into perspective. I realized how I hate talking to people, period.
The internet and its impersonal nature allow me to make all the noise in the world. The drama and the emotions behind the dynamics of dealing with people are left to nothing — no headache and no embarrassment, knowing that others won’t care what has been done or said.
When the addiction to computer has been established, like smokers and meat eaters alike, there is no way in the world to severe the connection. Taking away my happiness via logging online would make unhappy people — like moi!
Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.
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20090104-Don’t Know
Don’t know if I should kiss you or beat you to a pulp or bless you or curse you for being a jerk. Maybe in time I’ll forget you lived. Until then, be grateful..