Flynn's Paws: My Thoughts, My Gripes

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Recording occasional dreams in vivid details as best remembered.

  • 20081022-You Blockhead!

    You’ve seen the following ‘disclaimer’ phrases:

    ‘Subject to change…’
    ‘Individual results may vary…’

    This goes to show that not all intentions (heartfelt or otherwise) would ‘stay the course’. Not all promises could be kept due to the constant lies and deceptions going on behind the scenes at the home front. There is nothing left, seriously, not even hope, when dreams become reality that filing BK against ‘them’ may be the next option.

    Depending on the situation, there comes a time to ‘let go’. It is easier and less painful to pretend that life goes on without the dead weight that drags everything and everyone down to a spiraling path of destruction. This reminds me of hard workers being ‘fired’ or ‘laid-off’, loving couples going through divorce or true friends going separate ways.

    I did cry a crocodile tear knowing that the ‘ball’ could no longer bounce high enough to reach my intended goal as promised but instead it rolled away, deflated or yanked away at the last minute like Lucy did when Charlie Brown came up to kick the football. The lifeline itself appears severed, never to be restored — a broken trust and not a penny to show for all that time of hoping.

    Of course, that would mean going against one’s word. Does this mean ‘fraud’? Yup. Ask any legal representative and that would mean being ‘guilty’ with jail time. Does that make each one involved ‘guilty by association’? Not necessarily. Even the most ignorant wouldn’t recognize the betrayal until it is too late — the damage is irreparable and quite unforgivable.

    As Pete and pals ‘required’ of me this afternoon via our cellphones:

    ‘Just hang in there’.

    The only imagery that kept appearing in my mind is a fool (or joker) hanging upside-down, mocking my common sense to know that people exist to fool others, turn away and laugh after all that has been done and said. I kept thinking about a noose around someone’s neck but not the fool — he hangs around like the picture on a Tarot deck. I don’t know if I should hate him and ‘their’ abominations of afflictions upon me and the whole world.

    An image of a tarot card showing a fool standing but sometimes appears upside-down.

    After reading an article, I called out loud: ‘Charlie! Charlie!’ Each time, I could only remember that Oranda goldfish of orange and white coloration and how he appeared in my dreams as a skinny ‘humanoid’. His head was bumpy. His pain and suffering is probably more than what the rest of us had to go through in a lifetime prior to its dying a slow death.

    An image of an orange-colored oranda goldfish.

    ‘Charlie’ will always be remembered, not for being a loser, a blockhead or a goldfish. He will be remembered for being alive, like my promises to y’all but really by ‘theirs’ to moi. I, a sovereign being, will uphold my claim against ‘their’ foolishness. After all, it is my right. ‘They’ know it. This is the truth. ‘They’ cannot escape the ‘game’ — nothing has changed.

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  • 20081005-Dream Journal

    I don’t recall the exact date of this dream but I remember playing with people outdoors. One individual appeared to have very long neck like a horse. The nape of the neck had hair like a horse. I could see how the cut was even and parted along the middle. I visualized that this ‘person’ needed a haircut and saw the ‘crew cut’ done at the nape of the neck, leaving a gap between the head and the rest which was left untouched. The head was on the left field of vision. The hair color was light brown.

    Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20081011-Dream Journal

    I awoke at 12:33PM to the sound of ‘Paw’ knocking loudly on the wall downstairs and remembered this short dream.

    I was with someone else, perhaps Brat In front of my field of vision I pointed towards an open field. The dream seemed dimmed and not brightly lit. I remember saying something out loud with an adjective before the word ‘field’.

    We ran towards that area and saw some more ‘white’ people. One was a bald headed white man with dirty markings but light brown somewhere on top of his forehead. These people appeared to be country folks.

    A conversation is barely recalled to include some younger children. All I remember was looking out from this dimly lit enclosure and saw brightness or the appearance of small road with at least one vehicle coming from the left to right.

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  • 20081010-Dream Journal

    Today, I awoke around 03:53AM to three scenes.

    Dream one:

    I remember trying on lipstick. I couldn’t get the maroon to deep red color on my lips correctly, especially on the corners, which were smudged. I looked at the mirror to my right field of vision. The bed was to my left field of vision. I kept thinking about the ‘Twit’ and how she used the lip gloss to paint her lips. I hate her.

    Dream two:

    I then found myself sitting somewhere to the left field of vision. I see that the lighting was not bright, except for the sunlight filtering from above the ceiling and downward along the wall in front of me. The walls seem to be made out of horizontal stone as if our ‘classroom’ was located inside a cave.

    In front of me I see ‘white’ guy with light hair. He was describing texture of this pale colored cardboard or piece of photo paper. He kept interrupting him because I knew what he was trying to say. But he continued on softly as I saw the top was smooth with the bottom slightly rough. There were horizontal, pastel-colored markings on the top side.

    I turned the card over and saw small houses with circular openings towards the bottom. They appeared to be like bird houses, only they were lined up next to each other on the left side of this card. They were colorful. These small birdhouses were situated against what appears to be a brown cliff side. I believe there was some water towards the bottom. I described and pointed with my right finger that perhaps the water level could rise approximately near the bottom of the doors.

    Then I see a bald, white guy in my right field of vision get up from his sitting position. He was reading a newspaper. He saw what the both of us were doing and he didn’t like us talking. I told him that the guy was talking about this cardboard. He walked away and shook his head slightly left and right in disapproval. I sat there and later found myself in the third dream.

    Dream three:

    In this dream I was sweeping up the floor. My dust pan was already full and found myself emptying the contents into a large, plastic bucket. The dust pan contained lots of small pieces of wood as if they were cut into the shape of those plastic white popcorns for stuffing boxes. I noticed, too, that the contents of the dust pan included small plastic and cardboard pieces.

     Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20080928-Dream Journal

    I awoke from a very deep sleep on 06:00PM by ‘Kali’. I couldn’t move for I was very relaxed.

    Dream one:

    I dreamt that I was indoors with a black guy and ‘Razor’, who was watching television from the floor to my left field of vision. I was in bed with the black guy in my right field of vision. I see his portrait hanging on the left wall. Its eyes were goggling. I turned to him and he started to google his eyes around and around. I wasn’t impressed and quite disappointed. My lower chakra was affected. This was not the only dream where ‘they’ hurt me.

    Dream two:

    I was driving around in a white car through a white town. ‘Razor’ was to my right. The town had lots of white building and the road was paved white. I see three old doors, leading to what appears to be underground the city. Two doors were located to the right, one block apart from each other. One door was to the left. The doors were very low as if meant for the basement and large enough to enter on the stomach.

    The first door we passed was on the corner at a two o’clock direction and it was facing approximately a six o’clock direction. There appears to be a golden or circular knob. The second door was one block away. I remember telling ‘Razor’ that I went through this door to go underground. But when we passed that general location, there appears to be no second door. The third door was to the left and it appears to be nowhere too.

    Dream three:

    My dream self awoke to the sound of a loud helicopter flying over our home. My dream self got out of bed and looked at the second story window located above the stairway. I saw the pilot inside this very light, olive-colored helicopter. I noticed the clouds covered the skies. The clouds had the color of very light olive and some brown, too.

    I went downstairs. It appeared to be daylight but muted because of the cloudy day. To my left, I see the door leading to the master bedroom, where my parental units slept. That room appeared very dark as if it was night time, even though it was daylight elsewhere inside the house and outdoors.

    Then I noticed that the back sliding door was opened. I walked to close that black bar grills by going outdoors and swing it back from its opening position against its wall. But I looked up from underneath the wooden patio and noticed that part of the sky had some partial clouds, which showed some blue.

    Addendum on 09/30/2008 at 12:26PM: There was an astringent smell in the air when I went to the backyard of my dream. Yesterday smelled like something in the air.

     Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20080923-Dream Journal

    I awoke around 07:15AM to the following four dreams:

    Dream one:

    I was travelling along this stretch of road and to my right I see businesses. They were like booth of at least four. They were connected and open. I one booth has a big executive chair. It was leather and empty. The big wooden table had white papers on it. Behind it were lots of books lined up all the way up to its ceiling from the ‘back wall’. There were two more booths that had lots of books lined up.

    I found myself hovering to the left side of a female accountant. She was processing lots of W-2 forms. I could see her handling lots with her right hand. Another person seemed to be coming in from my right field of vision in this dream.

    Dream two:

    I was hovering over a brightly lit landscape and viewed my neighborhood. I traced with my fingers the two paths to get to our home. I see ours in the middle with a smaller one to ‘its’ right and an empty lot to ‘its’ left. This location ‘angle’ would be in a seven o’clock direction of this block. Behind this side of the block, I see more roads and another filled in area, which had a large building, located in the two o’clock direction of the block.

    Dream three:

    I zoomed down and found myself in the newly build structure of wood. It was built on the empty lot to the ‘left’ side of our house. It is a general place of business. The ‘front’ door’ was towards the street. I see myself getting into a parked vehicle located to the right side of this building. The parking lot lead to farther back to my left field of vision but somewhere closer to our home to my left.

    Dream four:

    I found myself driving from this wooden, place of business along this brightly lit, somewhat paved road with lots of brightly lit gravel path along the left hand side of the road. I see two dark figures or what appeared to be Latinos walking along this gravel path. I almost veered into them and then to the corner of my right field of vision, I saw that the faster moving truck wanted to speed up ahead of me. I then got back on the same road where the truck passed.

    Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20080802-Dream Journal

    I woke up 07:30AM to clear blue skies and very bright sun.

    There were two other people with me in the room.
    I dreamt of a Chinese medicine cabinet belonging to doctor.
    It was on its ‘back’ with lots of drawers.
    The wooden surface felt very smooth to the touch.

    I drove there and then back.
    I see behind me a vast countryside.

    Author’s note: Originally modified on Saturday, August 02, 2008 7:56:58 AM.

    Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20080920-Dream Journal

    I drifted in and out of sleep due to ‘Kali’ listening to the loud radio and I awoke around 09:00AM.

    Dream one:

    I was inside a house with simple furnishing. There were people indoors. I see lots of books lined up along the side of this white wall, mostly to my left field of vision. The books were being arranged, starting from in front of me in a counter clockwise position. Immediately to my left was a darkened area, probably fake plant. These were at eye level while sitting down. But I was standing up the whole time.

    Dream two:

    Then I found myself walking with Hillary Clinton to my left field of vision. We were talking and I couldn’t tell her in time that we wanted her for president of the United States and that ‘Kali’ would have voted for her. We were walking in this very dimly lit building with very high ceiling. I am not sure if the place would have echoed since we were the only walking. I then mumbled under my breath, thought to myself or mentioned loudly to her something about the planet and people. She might have held my hands or touched me in assurance and said to me either: ‘We are here to save’. ‘We don’t destroy’. She smiled widely as she said this to me and we laughed out loud together. I responded to her: ‘I know: THE LIGHT’. And I pointed upward with my right index finger very slightly that she might not have seen this gesture. We then passed through a door located to my right field of vision.

    Dream three:

    I then found myself going from one dimly lit room to another dimly lit room, from left to right in my left field of vision. I saw some words were written mostly in orange or brown on the bottom part of white paper as big as my small computer desk. Some more words were written towards the top but I’m not too sure about the middle portion. There may be a glass separating my dream self as I watch myself in action.

    Dream four:

    I remember being outdoors and there were lots of tall trees. There were activities going on. I was looking out the distance of mountains as if above the tree lines. Below I see some water that is partially filled, mostly in the middle.

    Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20080914-Dream Journal

    I awoke around 08:00AM and remembered the following two dreams.

    Dream one:

    I was walking around with another person outdoors. There appears to be lots of people of Asian descent. The buildings were tall and dark. The people were selling their wares. In one corner of my dream towards the right field of vision, I see lots of statues in cream color. They appeared to be life sized. They were lined up in their own display cases at least two stories high and the width of one store. One statue seemed to be standing more forward in its display and it was male. I turned around to another dream to my left field of vision.

    Dream two:

    I dreamt of being indoors, which was dark and metallic. There were people going to work, like me. Immediately to the left of the entrance to this place was the wall containing metallic ladders closely attached to this wall. In order to get to the far end of this wall and to the opposite side of the work area, people had to climb up and over one ladder and reach over to the next one to the right. The distance between each ladder was easily one arm in length.

    I remember in a similar dream of trying to get to work. But in this dream, I saw lots of people taking the ramp from my right field of vision. The ramp started from the bottom left with the zigzag terminating at the fourth one. I thought to myself that the fast route would be to hop over a landing somewhere to the left field of vision and forward to the entrance of the workplace. I don’t think I went through either doors of both dreams to work with people.

    Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20080912-Dream Journal

    I dreamt of the following off and on prior to waking up around 07:10.

    Dream one:

    I was driving along this wide highway. It was daylight and the overall feel was very bright. I kept missing the exits to my right. The exits were bright beige in color. I could see how the exits looped from the right over the ‘bridges’ in front of me and back down the ramp to my left side or the opposite side of the highway. I would see signs in green color to indicate where I was located.

    Dream two:

    I dreams of walking through a Filipino house. This was probably not the first time I visited this place. I noticed that the second floor was completely cover in very shiny wooden floor. There were patterns of dark brown squares outlining the sitting areas where people were talking. These sections were at least two or three and were in the middle of the very wide ‘hallway’.

    As I walked towards the far end of the hallway, I kept looking down through the ‘illusion’ of falling through the ‘center’ within the outline of dark brown colored tiles. And I visualized how there should have been a black colored iron rail around the perimeter to keep people like me from falling through the ‘floor’ and down to the first floor below, which I couldn’t see, of course. I avoided falling through by walking around to the right and outside of these ‘sitting arrangements’.

    Dream three:

    As I walked further forward, there were people talking at the far end of the wall to my right. Also to my right I noticed more wood work lining the bottom of that far wall near the peopld. I noticed to my left another small room and saw pictures of people and maybe at least on girl. I was thinking to myself how I am poor as I walked with my socks on while sliding across the very clean and smooth wooden floor of light beige color.

    Ahead of me and as I made my way to the left, I saw a dimmer room. I went inside the room and saw lots of Filipinos sitting along the sofa to my right hand side. There had to be at least one older teenager there and smaller kids. I think they were watching television across from them or to my immediate right side of the walk as I entered through the door.

    Anyway, I saw in my right hand a green-colored scrubber. I proceeded to wash out stainless steel sinks. Both were side by side in a normal kitchen. I saw how the suds formed and how I scrubbed the sides.

    Dream four:

    I was outdoors and talked to at least one lady. There appeared to be at least two other people listening from behind her. She was sitting down. There was lots of overgrowth behind the wooden, outdoor bench. The bench was situated or recessed inside the trimmed overgrowth. The listeners behind her got up and ran away to my right and out of my field of vision. She got up and told me she would tell at least two other people. I told her not too because there has been something about ‘GOVERNMENT CONTRACTS’. I picked up Native or Indian. She said North Dakota. She is from that area. She has a purple feeling around her. Her hair was jet black and her skin is not dark.

    Dream five:

    We talked some more as she pointed to my left. I turned around at a six o’clock direction nd saw more objects behind me. I could not make out those objects clearly. I then turned my gaze in the direction of the streets directly to my right and imaged myself walking to the corner intersection to hitch a ride, facing the traffic. But I turned around decided to walk up the sidewalk in my high heels.

    Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20080910-Dream Journal

    Part One:

    I dreamt of looking at a map to visit this place. I verified with ‘Razor’ if this section to the right was the place. I saw the words to the place but forgot. I also saw lots of roads and pipes drawn up close from this map. The place was a long road traveled from left to right and towards the top portion of this map. The place appeared to be in an ‘island’ to itself, similar to a bay area filled up with this man-made ‘island’. The road terminated at the middle of this ‘island’ with another off-road terminating just slight above this ‘island’. The place was supposed to be a very old place where people used to have fun in the water.

    In a ‘painting’ of still life of mostly black and white, there were lots of people wearing bloomers of that era. There were black (or even white) people helping to row the boats to the right. The right had lots of jagged rocks. The waves were rough. Some of the black folks were swimming from right to left, away from the jagged rocks.

    In a scene earlier, there was some chasing going on at this ‘water theme’ park. There were two children trying to escape down inside this pipe of red color as I visualized how one went through successfully and off to the right below with the second child coming out somewhere and into the arms of someone else below as I swooped down to make sure.

    Further into the dream, I saw how people came out of the waterways where the boats were and entered into the place where I was standing off to the right. People were soaking were and they entered this small, normal door to my right and into another passageway to my front and into my right. The were going somewhere and I believe as if to enjoy the water park.

    Part Two:

    I dreamt of being thrown into the future. The day was cloudy but I see to my left and through the glass window how the sun barely pierced the clouds of brownish-orange and gray.

    We were at the floor doing something and underneath something we see a small panel. At the bottom right corner appears to be a circular lock with horizontal indentation meant for opening with a coin of some sort.

    To my right I see lots of white paper inside this dark-colored container and found a couple of paper that was already cut to the size of cube. I wanted to write a message to the ‘past’ and asked for the time and date, which was on Tuesday, Valentines Day at 06:20PM.

    I scribbled some words of greeting and saw at least the word in capital: ‘HI!’

    I then was walking around with some other people. The place appeared familiar and brightly lit. We walked through the corridors in a counter-clockwise direction as if to go to the bathrooms by mistake because I saw one door that appeared to be the bathroom. Someone went ahead and came out to the main area. We went back the other way.

    Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.

  • 20080905-Dream Journal

    I awoke from my afternoon dream around 04:30PM. In my dream, I dreamt of myself getting out of the same bed I was taking a nap. My eyes were still closed as I scooted to the right side of the bed. I even felt my feet touch the carpet below. I found myself jumping up and down and screaming at ‘Pete’. I thought to myself while screaming, ‘Dammit, ‘Pete’! Where are you? Where is my phone call?’ Then I woke up and made my phone call around 04:33PM.

    Copyright © 2008 by Fluffy von der Flynn. All rights reserved.