I am still NOT understanding the full responsibilty of “a time-honored and highly valued position” of trust as a right-hand [wo]man. All I know is that I helped in the best possible ways.
There were only two to three instances when I refused to be his money mule with a stern “No!” And yes I’ve hurt his feelings etherically by blasting him during a cellphone conversation long ago. I’ve heard him cringe/fade with an “Oh” into the background after a moment of pause.
I’ve felt like I let down the team by not “being there” for them when he kept calling to me for help. I did not regret being unfit and unable to give EVERYTHING I had, mainly because I was broke and unemployed. I was still trying to pay off my credit card debt from their business scheme
But, hey! I’m more than making up for the karmic debt by going broke all over again with other “investment” endeavors, such as freedom, health and love.
Yes, I will continue to “gripe and whine about my […] duties.” I’ve a feeling I’m not quite off the hook as I recall what he said to me: “You are the first one.” Meaning, I’m the first one whom “he trust the most”, “a sacred trust” among fellow bros/sis.
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