Month: January 2009

Twit: He is whiter than you.

To me, that means they prefer to belong to more proper Europhiles, the oppressors. While we belong to the poor folks who are not highly active and more outdoorsy like them. They are ashamed of us for being too fat and ugly, too hairy and dark-skinned, too smelly and kinky-haired and too hot-tempered and passionate for their more peaceful, non-confrontational ways and alleged good heartedness.

But I see through their superficial sweetness and happiness mantra behind their rapid-fire conversations that something is DEFINITELY not right. They are not perfect. And just like us more laid back people whose attitudes and lifestyles are more like the black folks, they too have family problems. I have observed that the siblings do their own things and live their own lives. I have learned to accept that siblings move on with their new family units and forget the former ones.

We have ‘cow-towed’ too much to them and be like them and liked in returned – in the church and with everyone else willing to play along with old-fashioned respect and kindness. All we got was disregard to our culture and disrespect to our opinions. They have ignored us too many times.

We are no longer bothered by their choices to live a happy life together – full of teeth-grinding denial of fake smiles and plastic faces, in order to save what little remains of their sanity and survival by keeping and flocking together. It’s enough to drive serene person nuts from hearing non-stop conversation about anything mundane and ordinary. But that is their nature.

We are Filipinos, who like to keep to ourselves. We are more like the black folks, not Chinese. But for whatever reason and for demographic purposes, Filipinos have been lumped together with a category called ‘Asians’. The cultures among ‘Asians’ are different. There are too many dialects, provinces, towns, barrios, banyans for any one group of ‘Asians’ to completely understand each other.

Getting along will always is difficult. Expressing self to others has lost its meaning through simple English. It’s never going to be the same. Change for the better has not and will not occur to certain groups who continue cling to their traditions.

And y’all know what I mean: I’m not going to lighten up and let y’all live your fantasy of love and light, peace and good will. This is not my purpose. Nothing is honky-dory. I see now that this is reality. The world is insane. People are insane.

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