Day: March 8, 2006

  • 20060308-Small Bits

    Dagnabbit! Those mosquitoes are biting me! Their bites are almost unnoticeable by my bad hearing until I get all red and itchy and these hives start to form on my skin. I’d barely hear the initial buzz by my ears or feel something on my nose. My reaction time to swat them away was and still is slow. Then it’s too late and I get stung.

    This vapor medicine would be rubbed and/or taped over to expedite the healing action onto my wounds. The menthol action does work for those wanting immediate relief in two days. On day one, the swellings of the bigger bites go down by half their sizes. By day two, the remaining red dots appear as little itchy scabs that get picked and heal over until picked at again. Pick. Pick.

    That is what happens when these critters like to bite me. I must taste good to them otherwise they won’t keep coming back for more of my skin and blood. The red bites on my skin appear out of nowhere and I think they hide within my Tempur-Pedic bed system where air pockets allow not only their hideaways but great support for my back.

    Other mattresses used to numb my whole arm and hurt my neck and shoulders when I try to sleep on my sides. I still have to sleep flat on my back with better comfort thanks to my new bed which cost me over two thousand dollars.

    I do sleep more soundly now and dream more vividly than ever before due the comfortable bed. And, yes, I do snore when sound asleep and have awoken myself in the middle of snores! My bio-units make fun of me when I start snoring during my short naps on the family sofa after a hard day’s work. Snoring is from the side of Paw, again.

    When I grew up on the military housing, I used to get bitten all over by critters and got allergic reactions from those itchy hives as usual. I remember one of my eyelids swelling shut after being bitten by a mosquito. This bite took a long time to heal because the story is one that Maw remembered well.

    At the back of the military housing, there was this bush about four feet in height. Within this bush there thrived a nest of wasps. We all could hear the buzzing get louder as we got closer to the well hidden nest in that bush. For whatever reason that bush was left dangerously there while we kids played merrily on our swing set not to far off. That bush was eventually removed and we no longer feared the potential attack by one of those insects hurting us. None stung us.

    My other horrible experience was at the same swing set on the back of the military housing where a bunch of our friends were playing. As I sat down on the leftmost swing and enjoyed the laughter of other children, there landed this big spider on the back of my hand. It was as big as my hand and scary too.

    Everyone nearby ran away from me as I cried and wailed. I was frozen in fear because I didn’t want those sharp fangs digging into my flesh. They laughed and kept telling me to get rid of it myself. I didn’t know how. No one came to my rescue and had to shake off that critter knowing noone seemed to care. I ran to my mommy. That spider did not bite me.

    Pimples and acne have been my other personal battle and that is like being bitten, only from inside out. It’s the way my system reacts to the likes of fat, oil and meat. I know that my diet has not been under control all my life. The insecurity of not having enough to eat is hard to overcome when if fact abundance in foodstuff would not be my problem in this lifetime.

    Eating in moderation is difficult for me when I have this bad habit of snacking in between meals. I know, if I do lose my weight, I’ll start feeling cold due to less fatty layers that keep me warm. The people around me are fat pigs and disgusting when they have to eat for the sake of eating. I should take better care of myself now. Then again doesn’t that chocolate cake look delicious?

    Being bitten is one thing but biting back is another. I don’t remember biting anyone except for one cousin (on the side of Paw), who used to assert her aggressive behavior by grabbing hold of our arms and trying to bite us on the hands if things didn’t go her way. That was in the past and don’t know if that trait still exist in her. Maybe her kids might inherit the biting mechanism. Kids will do all sorts of fun games and end up getting hurt someway. It’s the rules, I suppose.

    How does one bite back when injured by another party? I would use the legal system, sue Pete and pals and perhaps, if possible, win a settlement, which seems to be the norm in this country. Sometimes settling out of court is a better option. Who knows? All I see is plain greed by both the plaintiff and defendant but mostly by the legal people who represent both parties.

    Going through the legal process is yet another slow bureaucratic process with all its red tape and red-eyed people from crying too much that happen to wear down the nerves of anyone. And by the time any justice, if any, has been handed down by basically and unauthorized person, there is nothing left except the big bill that no one could pay off. There is the bail, if any, then off to jail, which is already full of people with bad energy.

    I don’t know too much about the law, the legal system or my basic inalienable rights. I only know that my sovereign rights to exist are absolute and no court system on any land could take action or enact any justice over my head, mind, body or soul. As long as the natural laws and the laws of return are respected, no foreign placed jurisdiction on the original earth keepers’ land I currently call home could replace that right to live free in peace and harmony.

    It’s the little tidbits of reality that come from the ‘real’ freedom biters that have taken enough crap to know that all contracts are meant to be broken and forgiven once and for all. There is no such thing as binding like a noose around the neck, the hands or feet when there is love. Unconditional love knows no bound: No man-made law could bite that truth.

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  • 20060308-Sun Arise

    On your mark, get set, go! That’s how everyone should start every morning, like the race cars that start up fast and speed even faster around each turn of the race track. When the feeling is right and the energy level is high, there is much to do in so little time as part of the daily routine to get ready for work.

    I quickly decided to get up, make my bed, open the wooden blinds of the second floor to allow the Sun indoors (for good luck as passed on by Maw from Gigolo), take my shower, brush my teeth, gurgle the stinging mouthwash and put air into my tires inside the garage. I debated whether to buy batteries for my digital camera but decided to blog while my mind is still fresh and alert instead.

    Today, I woke up early at 06:30AM because I couldn’t drift back to sleep. My bedroom window is facing in the northern direction while the foot of my bed is facing towards the east. I do not need to use the alarm clock because the Sun happens to shine brightly through the ‘Hunter Douglas’ wooden blinds and my system wakes up automatically.

    Sometimes I could tell myself to wake up on a desired time by visualizing the face of the clock and my body synchronizing at the same time. My body is already used to getting up around this time in the morning not unless I ruin the sleeping pattern by blogging into the next morning.

    During my growing years in California, I used to feel groggy and sleepy all the time. I slept an average of ten to fourteen hours, like Paw. My system was charging its batteries during those emotional times.

    I didn’t cry much after sobbing hysterically at the dinner table that one night after Brat teased me. I had my period then and realized that I had to control my emotions from then on to avoid upsetting other family units.

    I was lazy, jobless and had nothing productive to do in my life. I didn’t make my bed, shower, exercise nor did anything that mattered to family units that were much cleaner than me. I left all the cleaning up to my parents because this was their house and wanted to be left alone.

    Currently, I find myself going to bed later and sometimes past midnight. This is due to the passions of blogging my memoirs and in poetry, which I never knew I could do before my awakening on V-Day of 02-14-2006.

    Drifting off to sleep has not been easy recently because I still have so much to share to the world. Waking up early is now important as I look forward to more stories to compose. It’s almost springtime too and that is significant to someone who likes to arise bright and early in the morning.

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  • 20060308-Platitudes Care

    Reading comic strips make me laugh and I almost snorted out through my nose these rice pilafs for lunch from the cafeteria downstairs. As I ate lunch, my mind came across this one word, platitudes, which sounded like an animal called a platypus (or duckbills) with attitudes. Platypuses are cute with their bills resembling ducks as they play in their natural habitat of water.

    I don’t consider myself an animal but animals with attitudes sound like me when I get angry. Being angry is not nice but there is justified anger when crossed by unwelcome intruders. When angered there is no other outlet but simmering stress that eventually come out as sheer outburst? Nothing could hide a volcano about to blow its top off or the anger of a woman betrayed, hurt or deceived.

    When I hear that I have an attitude, I bow to them in silent regard and flip them off mentally. Of course, my face will contort into this red-faced embarrassment upon hearing such remarks from people I hardly know. My aloof composure may need to be more relaxed. But how could I relax when I’m already an anxious person in front of strangers?

    I could meditate to bring the calm over me, like grinning widely from ear to ear to keep me from laughing out loud in their faces and work towards a more natural and friendlier smile, which always work for some with nice teeth. And when no one is looking, I may stick out my tongue at them for making fun at me in the first place.

    It’s impossible to keep a straight face without looking like some programmed robot without any feelings. I don’t know how people can keep their emotionless state for too long without breathing in the air after someone farted inside the elevator or laughing with the person who did that natural bodily function.

    Both good and bad attitudes exist because this defines the person. From my psychology class, any behavior could be modified before the hard core attitudes could budge a little to allow for some improvement. This sounds like an experiment for us all and I don’t like being part of an experiment that may be either beneficial or detrimental to the goals of the researchers.

    I tend to act like a sponge soaking up all the communicated information and incorporate what I’ve learned from others and discovered by myself into my sphere. Unfortunately, I also take things personally because it’s hard to separate my truth from theirs.

    Like my mutable sign, my attitudes will always adjust to the tune of the changing environment. I don’t wind surf on the waves of North Shore but surfing the internet is as close to taking sides. The battle is trying to find the part of me that cares.

    These are my platitudes as expressed via an online journal composed by a simple person, a novice writer and a powerful influence to my small public. I care about making a difference in the world no matter what attitude this blogger has to offer and share. So there! Nyah!

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